ugh
annoying day.. i wore the wrong pants.. they kept falling down.. then after skool i saw gil for a good 15 or 20 min.. i feel like such a fucking piece of shit. i get all pumped up to see him, n then i see him nim with him n i ignor ehim, im liek all bitchy.. n the slightest thing psses me off.. n the worst part ois-0 none of it is his fault!.. ugh this kill sme.. thank u for not liek killing me by now baby.. lol
i mean n then i keep thinking bout how last nite was kool- but gils leaving like thursday nite.. n im not seeing him at all tmrw or wed prolly.. ugh- i wudnt b a fuckign distraction.. but w/e its their choice.. (gil u no wut im saying_).. but yea.. i love him more than my life it self.. n it is just like blah now, bc i no this breka ill b home claenign studying maybe an occasional outing with ppl, but thats it- its gonan suck.. not even that iw ont have ne sexual conctact with gil. . but i jsut will miss being next to him feeling warm,. n safe.. god.. why does he have to go away., so soo soon. but i guess the sooner he goes the sooner hell b back..
so yea
i just no all this mental pain will pay off the day or tew b4 he gets home cu zill b super hyper n ill b jumping around skool going: gils coming home gils coming home..
n now that i think bout it- i remmeber when i wen to the bahamas liek feb break.. it was horrible. i cudnt enjoy one thing bc all id id was thnk of him.. damnit.. n i was only away for like 6 days.. shit n hes gonna b away 3 times that- a total of 18 days.. god this is gonan blow.. ok now i shall go cry.. again.. n b emo- bc im soo emo.. lol
i love u gil
n i went to the early nov show last nite- good times.. dun wanna tihnk bout it tho- itll only depress me more. nite guys..
n if uw anna chill over the vaca which i no ALL of u do. call me: 328 3337
i mean n then i keep thinking bout how last nite was kool- but gils leaving like thursday nite.. n im not seeing him at all tmrw or wed prolly.. ugh- i wudnt b a fuckign distraction.. but w/e its their choice.. (gil u no wut im saying_).. but yea.. i love him more than my life it self.. n it is just like blah now, bc i no this breka ill b home claenign studying maybe an occasional outing with ppl, but thats it- its gonan suck.. not even that iw ont have ne sexual conctact with gil. . but i jsut will miss being next to him feeling warm,. n safe.. god.. why does he have to go away., so soo soon. but i guess the sooner he goes the sooner hell b back..
so yea
i just no all this mental pain will pay off the day or tew b4 he gets home cu zill b super hyper n ill b jumping around skool going: gils coming home gils coming home..
n now that i think bout it- i remmeber when i wen to the bahamas liek feb break.. it was horrible. i cudnt enjoy one thing bc all id id was thnk of him.. damnit.. n i was only away for like 6 days.. shit n hes gonna b away 3 times that- a total of 18 days.. god this is gonan blow.. ok now i shall go cry.. again.. n b emo- bc im soo emo.. lol
i love u gil
n i went to the early nov show last nite- good times.. dun wanna tihnk bout it tho- itll only depress me more. nite guys..
n if uw anna chill over the vaca which i no ALL of u do. call me: 328 3337