Take it easy (love nothing)
Where would I go? I could not think of one place on the entire planet that held any interest for me. There was nothing I wanted to see or do. Because, no matter where I went, I would not be going to anywhere-I would only be running from.
Give me a reason to feel any differently because I can't think of one. The past couple weeks have shown me that it could be worse but even still that doesn't change anything. So many things are coming up, or have already happened, that I should be excited for or at least care about but right now I just don't. I don't care. It doesn't excite me. no matter what it is, I'll find a way to ruin it so why spend the money? So I can stand there feeling stupid? Or so I can sit in a room of people feeling alone? No. Of all the places in the world there is one I want to be. But even when I'm here I try to create a place that doesn't exist.
The light is getting so dim that I just can't fucking see a thing.