BLAND
Im having those feelings like im frozen and im losing my opportunity to accomplish anything good! Im so close to having what I've always wanted, but now I dont know if it was really that great in the first place! I saw this kid wandering around campus all by himself and i wanted to tell him to come and sit with me! At first i thought i was just bored and had nothing else to think about, but that wasn't the case at all........because believe me i have plenty on my mind! Maybe Im lonely, but thats so weird because I have so many people to talk too! I have been lazy lately, not really putting any effort into anything . Im moving in slow motion. Everything is moving around me in chaos. Everything im use to is changing, and it's not phasing me. I feel like Im supposed to be sad, but im not!I have never been one to express my real inner thoughts and emotions, and i dont cry. Which is funny because when i was in elementary school I was the biggest i mean biggest cry baby! Not pushing myself to please anyone, I find things rather depressing!I like to make people laugh! It feels good to smile at someone and have them smile back.I use to always try to do my best but now i dont know what happened. I think that Im losing my spark.The energy of my personality that use to always keep me on my toes......now im just plain, bland, and that is not cool.........because who likes bland.