ugh
why can one comment from one person totally screw me up for days and re-think three years? really, how does that work? i'd like to know so i can make it stop. i feel guilty for everything, like it was all my fault when it wasn't....it was only half the other half was self-inflicted by him. and now i feel crazy and all out of gear....as if i wasn't out of gear enough in december/january...and now it all begins again. just go away.