Guilt
One of the things I'm looking forward to when I leave Swat is a decrease in my constant guilt level. I didn't work last night; and the night before I went to bed early because I was tired. While I can consciously acknowledge that these crimes are probably not worthy of capital punishment, I am still filled with a strong sense of guilt that won't go away until I do something cathartic, like make myself miserable and stay in Cornell all day. It doesn't help that I am surrounded by so many determined and ambitious people. How can I justify my time off when there are people with the same work load that never take a night off? I need to have a guilt free year, or at least a year with less guilt.