I'm tired.
So tired.
I stayed up a little too late last night, and then tried to go to sleep while another occupant tried to stay awake. Usually I'm the one who is awake latest, so it didn't work real well.
I got to work nearly an hour late. It is sad really. I get through the door and I start fielding calls and answering messages. Then in 15 minutes my associate shows up and I pretend like I've been there all morning and go for a break. I've really become so apathetic towards this job that it is sickening. It is driving me mad, but I need it. I need the money. I'm not happy about that either. I wish I could go back to where everything was simple and six months of unemployment was just a vacation to me.
Of course, I was also 18 then and nothing was complicated yet. I didn't have a job, I'd just moved across the state and I wasn't going to college (still haven't gone). I just did what I needed to get by and was perpetually staying at a friend's house. I miss it.
I want a lack of responsibility back, I want to be able to make stupid mistakes and bounce back. I hate being in charge of things.
And now I'm bitching.
Later
I stayed up a little too late last night, and then tried to go to sleep while another occupant tried to stay awake. Usually I'm the one who is awake latest, so it didn't work real well.
I got to work nearly an hour late. It is sad really. I get through the door and I start fielding calls and answering messages. Then in 15 minutes my associate shows up and I pretend like I've been there all morning and go for a break. I've really become so apathetic towards this job that it is sickening. It is driving me mad, but I need it. I need the money. I'm not happy about that either. I wish I could go back to where everything was simple and six months of unemployment was just a vacation to me.
Of course, I was also 18 then and nothing was complicated yet. I didn't have a job, I'd just moved across the state and I wasn't going to college (still haven't gone). I just did what I needed to get by and was perpetually staying at a friend's house. I miss it.
I want a lack of responsibility back, I want to be able to make stupid mistakes and bounce back. I hate being in charge of things.
And now I'm bitching.
Later