Why not...
Well D has been after me to start writing on here again and I finally figured why the fuck not.
Life pretty much sucks right now...My fiance of 5 years just left me recently in a sordid series of really fucked up events. As D has pointed out I try to say i don't care about her anymore, but yet can't help the fact that I do. She is fucking her entire life up and is to blind to see it. Or maybe I am just bitter lol. I hate the whole dating process personally. It takes all that time and effort to get to know someone and build a relationship with them...and you just never know. I refuse to be bitter though. I am working out regularly...since it started I have lost about 45lbs and weigh less than I have in 8 years. At least I am feeling better about myself, and also at least the situation with Sarah (now X-fiance) has some sort of closure. Fuck it. I am going to smile and fucking have fun. Maybe this will help some of the venting....I think I stopped using it for a long time because I didn't want people who actually knew me to be able to read some of the things I might vent in here. Now I guess I just don't care.
I'll write something tomorrow or something...
Life pretty much sucks right now...My fiance of 5 years just left me recently in a sordid series of really fucked up events. As D has pointed out I try to say i don't care about her anymore, but yet can't help the fact that I do. She is fucking her entire life up and is to blind to see it. Or maybe I am just bitter lol. I hate the whole dating process personally. It takes all that time and effort to get to know someone and build a relationship with them...and you just never know. I refuse to be bitter though. I am working out regularly...since it started I have lost about 45lbs and weigh less than I have in 8 years. At least I am feeling better about myself, and also at least the situation with Sarah (now X-fiance) has some sort of closure. Fuck it. I am going to smile and fucking have fun. Maybe this will help some of the venting....I think I stopped using it for a long time because I didn't want people who actually knew me to be able to read some of the things I might vent in here. Now I guess I just don't care.
I'll write something tomorrow or something...