you always wish
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you wish that there was just some way to actually go back in the past and fix what went wrong.
sometimes i wish life had a rewind button.
theres so many things that i wish i had done differently, so many things that i wish 'could of been' or 'what if that happened'.
there's things i wish i didn't have to feel guilty for.
i shouldn't feel guilty to feel what i want to feel. i shouldn't feel guilty of hanging out with a guy or with a bunch of people.
i shouldn't feel guilty to let my feelings show. i just don't understand why i feel this way.
i guess i feel guilty overall because of someone that im in love with, with someone that i know i could never have, even though i do, but it doesn't feel right anymore. it feels like we are ending anytime soon. i know we are.
i hurt a guy on saturday, he asked me out and i said no. i said no cuz i didn't want to feel like 'why did i get into a relationship for?, it's useless.' i didn't tell him why, i wanted to, but i just kept my mouth shut.
yea i kissed him.
yet i feel guilty for doing that because i gave my heart out to kevin, even though i know he really doesn't know that because he keeps shutting me out and he will never know that.
Kyle (the one who asked me out) was telling me how he felt about me and how he wanted me to give him a chance. that is why im thinking like i am now.
i want to give him a chance, but at the same time my heart is saying 'holdback, dont go after it yet.' while my mind is going 'Dooo itttt!, go after himm, it's a good chance to get it while you have it before you lose it.' ahh, it's so confusing for me. i alway say to myself to go along with what my heart tells me and i am, but for some reason i keep thinking that my heart is wrong this time. i don't know why, but i do. it's literally eating me up inside so bad. i just want to friggin scream or something.
i'm clueless as to what to do in this situation now.
i've turned down lot of guys that had asked me out this year, but kyle..i don't know. there's something there that i like about him, but i can't figure out what it is , and that is killing me.
but on the flip side, things have been okay for the most part. no feeling sad or depressed about anything anymore...just a lot of confusing and guiltyness.
hope everyone is excited that it's almost summmerrrr <3
if you have/ had your prom, send me pictturress! ♥
hope everyone is doing gooddd?!
you wish that there was just some way to actually go back in the past and fix what went wrong.
sometimes i wish life had a rewind button.
theres so many things that i wish i had done differently, so many things that i wish 'could of been' or 'what if that happened'.
there's things i wish i didn't have to feel guilty for.
i shouldn't feel guilty to feel what i want to feel. i shouldn't feel guilty of hanging out with a guy or with a bunch of people.
i shouldn't feel guilty to let my feelings show. i just don't understand why i feel this way.
i guess i feel guilty overall because of someone that im in love with, with someone that i know i could never have, even though i do, but it doesn't feel right anymore. it feels like we are ending anytime soon. i know we are.
i hurt a guy on saturday, he asked me out and i said no. i said no cuz i didn't want to feel like 'why did i get into a relationship for?, it's useless.' i didn't tell him why, i wanted to, but i just kept my mouth shut.
yea i kissed him.
yet i feel guilty for doing that because i gave my heart out to kevin, even though i know he really doesn't know that because he keeps shutting me out and he will never know that.
Kyle (the one who asked me out) was telling me how he felt about me and how he wanted me to give him a chance. that is why im thinking like i am now.
i want to give him a chance, but at the same time my heart is saying 'holdback, dont go after it yet.' while my mind is going 'Dooo itttt!, go after himm, it's a good chance to get it while you have it before you lose it.' ahh, it's so confusing for me. i alway say to myself to go along with what my heart tells me and i am, but for some reason i keep thinking that my heart is wrong this time. i don't know why, but i do. it's literally eating me up inside so bad. i just want to friggin scream or something.
i'm clueless as to what to do in this situation now.
i've turned down lot of guys that had asked me out this year, but kyle..i don't know. there's something there that i like about him, but i can't figure out what it is , and that is killing me.
but on the flip side, things have been okay for the most part. no feeling sad or depressed about anything anymore...just a lot of confusing and guiltyness.
hope everyone is excited that it's almost summmerrrr <3
if you have/ had your prom, send me pictturress! ♥
hope everyone is doing gooddd?!