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x-posted from FB
This last weekend I stayed home on saturday night because I wanted to stay and play video games, something I did with an almost religious devotion not two years ago. Late, late into the night however I had what I can only call an epiphany, I'd invested so much time on a hobby that didn't really leave me satisfied at the end of the day, sure I had fun that night, but what did I really have to show for it?
As I was ready to go to sleep for the night, I decided to put on some music and just meditate a little on what I had just realized, my brain would just not shut down though, so I got up and walked to where I had my juggling balls, and started juggling, and it was at this moment that I really came to think, "if I want to be someone who gets paid for doing what I love, which is juggling, and spinning, and performing. What am I doing sitting here playing video games?", I just started practicing and kept practicing for about an hour after that, and as I was standing there, I made a few decisions.
One of which is a really tought one for me, I decided to put away my Xbox for an undefined amount of time.
The thing is that I realized that I need to get serious if I really mean to be an entertainer, I know that I'm good, but I could be sooooo much better, and the only way I'm going to get better is to practice, and as long as I have the temptation of the video games on hand, I will always choose the games over other things. Maybe one day when I consider myself to be responsible enough to be able to handle video games nearby I'll bring the Xbox out of storage, who knows, maybe when that moment comes around, I'll no longer have the urge to play. Video games were such a HUGE part of my life, for such a long time. I mean, I used to work testing video games, there were weeks in which I put in over 80 hrs of game time, and let's not forget those 3 day weekends where I would start playing WoW on Saturday and not shut down the game until sometime Monday.
As such, I have made the commitment to myself to spend my time really honing my arts, whether that's acrobatics, or silks, or fire, or juggling. This is something I feel really strongly that I must do for myself. I've come a long way, and there's still much, much further to go. Here's to always finding that next hill, that next tallest mountain to climb, that new challenge which will always leave you wanting more.
*cheers*
This last weekend I stayed home on saturday night because I wanted to stay and play video games, something I did with an almost religious devotion not two years ago. Late, late into the night however I had what I can only call an epiphany, I'd invested so much time on a hobby that didn't really leave me satisfied at the end of the day, sure I had fun that night, but what did I really have to show for it?
As I was ready to go to sleep for the night, I decided to put on some music and just meditate a little on what I had just realized, my brain would just not shut down though, so I got up and walked to where I had my juggling balls, and started juggling, and it was at this moment that I really came to think, "if I want to be someone who gets paid for doing what I love, which is juggling, and spinning, and performing. What am I doing sitting here playing video games?", I just started practicing and kept practicing for about an hour after that, and as I was standing there, I made a few decisions.
One of which is a really tought one for me, I decided to put away my Xbox for an undefined amount of time.
The thing is that I realized that I need to get serious if I really mean to be an entertainer, I know that I'm good, but I could be sooooo much better, and the only way I'm going to get better is to practice, and as long as I have the temptation of the video games on hand, I will always choose the games over other things. Maybe one day when I consider myself to be responsible enough to be able to handle video games nearby I'll bring the Xbox out of storage, who knows, maybe when that moment comes around, I'll no longer have the urge to play. Video games were such a HUGE part of my life, for such a long time. I mean, I used to work testing video games, there were weeks in which I put in over 80 hrs of game time, and let's not forget those 3 day weekends where I would start playing WoW on Saturday and not shut down the game until sometime Monday.
As such, I have made the commitment to myself to spend my time really honing my arts, whether that's acrobatics, or silks, or fire, or juggling. This is something I feel really strongly that I must do for myself. I've come a long way, and there's still much, much further to go. Here's to always finding that next hill, that next tallest mountain to climb, that new challenge which will always leave you wanting more.
*cheers*