PSA on what’s going with me and my writing
So I've been trying to buy a house for the past few months. It hasn't been very successful thus far. Two house sales have fallen through. This sounds annoying but it's actually really quite depressing and after every setback I find myself upset and disheartened and then force myself to start all over again. I've done this twice now.
All the stress relating to searching endlessly, going to open homes, doing research on the ones I've shortlisted, then psyching myself up to make an offer, negotiating the price and then going through the rigmarole of having reports done (and dealing with the aftermath of them) is so draining and time consuming that it has left me absolutely physically tired and emotionally uninterested in writing at all.
I’m so behind on Sandman updates it isn’t funny and Natural Selection is lying there with a 3/4 written chapter judging me. And I just feel like if I could move past this block of going unconditional (being in probate for the Americans) then it would free up my creativity. Having been on the cusp of that very threshold twice now, I’ve seen how my imagination starts sparking but it’s been yanked away both times and I’ve gone through another two failed negotiations, so now I’m in a constant state of being annoyed and have been getting irrationally upset over dumb shit. So with that being said, updates on both stories are going to be delayed until I can sort myself and this house thing out. I don’t know how long that’s going to be but likely at few more weeks at the very least.
In the meantime, I’ll keep re-editing my existing work and transferring some more stuff over to AO3 so I’m at least being somewhat productive.
Thank you to those who have been checking in on me, I’m very grateful of your support. Sorry to those who are asking for updates - I need to take care of this first.