gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I'M HAVING SUCH A GOOD DAY. but even my good days are my bad days now. sheesh.
well, in addition to having a good day, i've realized:
I'M MENTALLY DEFICIENT WHEN IT COMES TO BEING A FUNCTIONAL HUMAN BEING.
seriously, there has to be some biochemical explanation for all my shortcomings as a person.
I ALWAYS DO THE STUPIDEST SHIT WHEN I'M NERVOUS. but the thing is, i get sooo nervous about the stupidest little things.
i can't do shit on my own without being nervous and freaked out about it.
i can't talk to boys without being nervous and freaked out, and on the rare occasion that i can, i fuck it up by DOING SOMETHING SO ENORMOUSLY STUPID. seriously, how do i even manage to breathe?
GOD.
AND the reason i'm having a good day should not be a fucking reason for having a good day. i mean, i should be having a good day, but for other reasons. like:
i think i did pretty ok on my math test. ten fucking questions, where you have to explain shit, in 50 minutes. and not just ten questions because some questions had multiple parts. and i couldn't stay later because i had to get to my next class in TEN MINUTES to turn in a problem set AT 11. pshhh. so hopefully i did ok. i feel pretty good. but if i managed to fuck it up, i'm going to FREAK OUT.
i also walked to 4th all by myself and went to epic all by myself (where i made a total ass of myself). i managed to do it. yay! i felt like a douche, but oh well.
i actually went to my 2 pm class. not a lot of people go, which makes me feel better about ditching.
so yeah, good day.
except i'm childish and retarded.
i think people think i'm a stuck up bitch cuz i don't talk cuz i'm shy.
well, in addition to having a good day, i've realized:
I'M MENTALLY DEFICIENT WHEN IT COMES TO BEING A FUNCTIONAL HUMAN BEING.
seriously, there has to be some biochemical explanation for all my shortcomings as a person.
I ALWAYS DO THE STUPIDEST SHIT WHEN I'M NERVOUS. but the thing is, i get sooo nervous about the stupidest little things.
i can't do shit on my own without being nervous and freaked out about it.
i can't talk to boys without being nervous and freaked out, and on the rare occasion that i can, i fuck it up by DOING SOMETHING SO ENORMOUSLY STUPID. seriously, how do i even manage to breathe?
GOD.
AND the reason i'm having a good day should not be a fucking reason for having a good day. i mean, i should be having a good day, but for other reasons. like:
i think i did pretty ok on my math test. ten fucking questions, where you have to explain shit, in 50 minutes. and not just ten questions because some questions had multiple parts. and i couldn't stay later because i had to get to my next class in TEN MINUTES to turn in a problem set AT 11. pshhh. so hopefully i did ok. i feel pretty good. but if i managed to fuck it up, i'm going to FREAK OUT.
i also walked to 4th all by myself and went to epic all by myself (where i made a total ass of myself). i managed to do it. yay! i felt like a douche, but oh well.
i actually went to my 2 pm class. not a lot of people go, which makes me feel better about ditching.
so yeah, good day.
except i'm childish and retarded.
i think people think i'm a stuck up bitch cuz i don't talk cuz i'm shy.