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Well a Bit of a Update,Short and sweet I guess.. Well Don and I are still doing great, we both have been VERY stressed Lots going on, with the car things, and job stuff.. and well last thurs I had to put my Dog Tasha to sleep, which broke my heart. But I guess it was time. She just one morning woke up normal,and as the day pergressed, she was having a hard time with her legs... Again.. And we took her to the vet that night, *weds* and they were wanting to do all these things to diagnose her, which woulda costed a small fortune.. and we asked if there was anything else we can do that didnt cost much.. *at this point she was still able to walk, a lil wobbly but walk.. * And she gave us another pain killer, and a steroid.. Well when we got home, she wasnt walking at all, her front feet were curling under.. she couldnt stand, and we had to hold her head up to get her to drink water, I knew at this point it was over.. But my mom on the other hand.. No.. she thought she still had hope.. :-/ We had to carry her outside, with a towl around her waist.. to get her to go potty.. I worked hard to convince my mom it was time, and this wasnt fair to her.. as hard as it was on me, I was tring to be strong.. by morning, my mom came to the same conclusion, and we took her that night to the vet again, because of her drastic change, to have her looked over again.. well the vet came to the conclusion that, she felt her feet so she wasnt paralyzed, She had a neurological problem, which was keeping her from walking.. And the funny thing is, when we got there, she perked up, Like she knew what was going to happen, like she was telling us it was ok.. that she was going to get better, and she wouldnt have to worry bout running around on her own.. And Man that is when it was all over for me.. I was officially balling my eyes out.. all the strength I mustered had ended.. Don and I watched her be put down, My mom couldnt handle it. watching a process like that is defently different, it was alot more peaceful,and quicker then I ever imagined, But .. I had to say goodbye 4 times.. till I could leave the room.. Oncebefore it happened.. once when they brought her back with the Iv to do it, twice when she was done.. :-/ never thought it was going to be so hard, and for the first time, saw Don cry .. He didnt know her half as long as I, But, it hurt him just as much! Well I came to work on Fri, after being off 2 days .. one from being sick, and then one from the stuff with tasha, I was LOST.. I dont think I Was all there.. defently a hard day.. Keeping from crying, and tring to paint on the smile u have to have when your working.. to show all is ok. Then poor tyson tring to adjust.. he is sad,and depressed, But over the weekend he got alot of attention from me and Don, and I thank he is finally doing better, thank god!

But other then this stuff, Not alot going on. went to a house warming party Sat.. and went out with a friend Fri night, to loosen up.. so I thank things will be better soon!

And thanks to you my love for helping me through all this, I Wouldnt know where I would be without you! I love you!