You suck

[gietzen]

I never thought you would ever have such a dramatic impact on my life as you have surprisingly done. The first time I saw you on my message inbox.. I thought “what a floozy.” You didn’t mean a thing to me, but slowly through you deceiving ways you made your way into my life and made me fall for you. It’s been about a month, through all the problems you caused in my life, I still think about you. Every day, I think about you. I question myself why I do. Am I weak? Am I pathetic? Is it worth it? And the biggest question of all…Why?? Maybe it’s the way you always made me laugh and keep a big smile on my face. Maybe it’s the way you held me in your arms after we made love. Maybe it’s the way our personalities connected like no other to make me feel like we were meant to be together forever. Maybe it’s the way we prayed our prayers before we went to sleep. Or maybe it’s the way you looked me in the eyes and told me I was the only one.

How naive I was. Your tore me apart. I finally opened myself up, only to find out that men are deceiving bastards and can use girl’s feelings as a worthless flimsy peace of meat. How, how could you do that to me? I trusted you. I loved you. As much as I held back, I couldn’t hold back anymore and I let my feelings go.

I will get over you. Ill be strong. I will move on.