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Nothing is innately WRONG, but something is just up. The past two days, I have been so irritable. I just feel like crying. I am so busy. I usually take a day to recooperate, but it seems like a day isn't cutting it.
I feel fat, lazy, overworked, way too busy. I just, it's like an itch I can't get ahold of. I miss things. I miss easy high school days, and I miss my very best friends. College is just flying by. It seems so weird how fast NINE ENTIRE WEEKS has been for me. THe house is awesome, but being a pledge sorta sucks. We don't get hazed, but it's time consuming.
And I don't have any privacy. I can't cry in my room, or walk around in my underwear. I can't blast my music, because Alison lives here. I just want space. I want time. I want to sleep and eat all day but still be skinny.
I have a headache and an impossible midterm. And Chris is always there for me, but it seriously feels like he isn't when I need him the most. I have an off day, and of course the day he promises we will hang... he bails. I HATE THAT.
I know I am busy and have had things come up last minute, so I understand. I'm not even mad. I am just a grouch. I wanna just vent out on you girls. You can always tell when I write in my LJ that I just want you girls to read it and just understand. Just take it in, let it sink, and just have something to say. You girls always know how to brighten my day.
It has finally sunk in. I have had time in class to doze off and think about what I had, and how easily someone, even myself, could take that for granted. So much ahead of us, but I couldn't be here without them. I couldn't get through shitty breakups, or family drama, or just low self esteem without you girls. All of you had somehing to give me, and I hope I gave you something too.
I just wnat to see everyone this Thanksgiving and just be goofy. Sit in underwear and like... rock out? ....
Do you girls miss me too?
I feel fat, lazy, overworked, way too busy. I just, it's like an itch I can't get ahold of. I miss things. I miss easy high school days, and I miss my very best friends. College is just flying by. It seems so weird how fast NINE ENTIRE WEEKS has been for me. THe house is awesome, but being a pledge sorta sucks. We don't get hazed, but it's time consuming.
And I don't have any privacy. I can't cry in my room, or walk around in my underwear. I can't blast my music, because Alison lives here. I just want space. I want time. I want to sleep and eat all day but still be skinny.
I have a headache and an impossible midterm. And Chris is always there for me, but it seriously feels like he isn't when I need him the most. I have an off day, and of course the day he promises we will hang... he bails. I HATE THAT.
I know I am busy and have had things come up last minute, so I understand. I'm not even mad. I am just a grouch. I wanna just vent out on you girls. You can always tell when I write in my LJ that I just want you girls to read it and just understand. Just take it in, let it sink, and just have something to say. You girls always know how to brighten my day.
It has finally sunk in. I have had time in class to doze off and think about what I had, and how easily someone, even myself, could take that for granted. So much ahead of us, but I couldn't be here without them. I couldn't get through shitty breakups, or family drama, or just low self esteem without you girls. All of you had somehing to give me, and I hope I gave you something too.
I just wnat to see everyone this Thanksgiving and just be goofy. Sit in underwear and like... rock out? ....
Do you girls miss me too?