i never update anymore...

[gidgettec6]

maybe thats a good thing im never online or updating means im really busy...ive been having a blast and this year has be amazing so far i finally feel like im not behind shadows anymore and the light is shinning on me does that make sense? socially academically and physically...like ive never felt this way before...like my mind is in the right place you know...like school is great and i think i can pull a 4.0 for sure...soroity wise living in is a blast ...physically im in more shape and fit then i have ever ever been in my life..or at least as long ago as i can actually remember and it reflex too..its so sad but being healthier and having a more positive body image is opening so many doors and im so much more confident about myself inside and out then i have ever been...like im not britney spears fit wise but im fit where i feel healthy and alive and i dont have to hide behind my weight in fear of being judged...my new confidence definatly shines through...with girls with guys and even teachers...its not so much that these people like me because of the way i look...i think its finally because im comfortable about my body about being healthy and the confidence shines through and people sense it and it draws them in unlike how i use to be super insecure and always worried that i was to fat or too sloppy looking..or something like that...it might seem superficial but in all honesty its not ...i feel healthy and fit and there for im more confident....so the guy situations this year has been way better too like they are beginning to be more meaningful and less pointless and i have conversations with them insted of hiding on superficial and shallow physical aspects of dating its more mental now...im in the right state to actually find a great boyfriend.

soroity rush...
omg how did i ever get into chi omega, the process of choosing girls is definatly an experience and suprizing ...it seem so hard to get in how did i ever get here