frustrated at myself, mostly....
so i haven't publicly updated in a little while. for those of you who don't see me on a daily basis, here's how i'm doing.
i've been having frequent headaches. like, every other day. i'm doubting myself and my choices more than ever. i'm sick of doubting and i'm sick of waiting. i've never been the kind of person to not do something and just wait around. but i don't have a choice right now. i have to wait, and hope for the best. for the past few days, i've been at my apartment for about half an hour from the time i leave until the time i get home, which is usually a period of about 12 hours. i'm getting paid 7.50 an hour to help nardin with their show this week, which is great, and it's easy, but i have no time because of it. i'm exhausted from the life i've led these past three weeks. i want it all to be over so i can relax again. i want an answer. but at the same time, i want to give it time so the answer won't be forced. i want this all to work out. i've left my life up to fate, and now i have to wait for the answers to come....i've been waiting for almost a month now. i hope the answers come soon.
'I want so much to open your eyes,
Cuz I need you to look into mine.' (Snow Patrol)
i've been having frequent headaches. like, every other day. i'm doubting myself and my choices more than ever. i'm sick of doubting and i'm sick of waiting. i've never been the kind of person to not do something and just wait around. but i don't have a choice right now. i have to wait, and hope for the best. for the past few days, i've been at my apartment for about half an hour from the time i leave until the time i get home, which is usually a period of about 12 hours. i'm getting paid 7.50 an hour to help nardin with their show this week, which is great, and it's easy, but i have no time because of it. i'm exhausted from the life i've led these past three weeks. i want it all to be over so i can relax again. i want an answer. but at the same time, i want to give it time so the answer won't be forced. i want this all to work out. i've left my life up to fate, and now i have to wait for the answers to come....i've been waiting for almost a month now. i hope the answers come soon.
'I want so much to open your eyes,
Cuz I need you to look into mine.' (Snow Patrol)