i don't know

[gidgdamidg]

"escape from inside"

i run
but i do not move
so Lost; unsure
my walls, my bars, my barriers
are my eyes
my heart
my skin
they hold me back
from what-
i don't know

you look,
do you see me?
can you?

i can't
i look but i do not See me
i don't know that face, those eyes are so empty
on the outside.
inside they are on fire

the tears burn

but the flames only rise
Alone

my smile, practiced
perfected
fake

my heart is lost
my mind is crying
my knees quiver
but i do not Fall

i am not here.
i am inside
trying to learn how to
Escape.

trying to forget,
to remember how to love
to smile
to be seen, heard, loved, Wanted

to know and understand
to find me

to be Happy
to stay, to be understood

i see it
how do i get there?

i close my eyes.
watch the flame glow.
scream Silently

and wait