This summer...
This summer had been A roller coaster.
I am the fattest I have ever been. Ever. This sucks. I am starting to work out and diet.
I made a lot of new friends. I hope they are reading this.
I got a job.
I am trying to dress better.
My mom is trying to kill me, and I her.
I have a new band.
Things with Taylor have been shitty. We are in love with each other. Still, six fucking months later, after we broke up, and she is still with her loser boyfriend. After all we said, after all those nights of heavy peting, tears, deep longing looks into eachothers eyes, firework like kisses, after I made her birtday dinner, she is still with someone who she was telling me for weeks was just ok, someone who snooped through her phone, and how she would have rather be with me, but isn't. I am tired of this game. I am such a fool in love with her. Part of me can't stop. I have never ever loved some one as much as I have loved her. She completes me. I just am so hurt. Everyone I love fucking does this to me. When I am not with her, I feel empty, like part of me is missing. When I am laying in bed with her the world stands still, and everything feels like it is in its right place. There is nothing I can do, hell, I wouldn't even know what to do, as if there is anything I can do.
Things still feel pretty shitty for me.
I am the fattest I have ever been. Ever. This sucks. I am starting to work out and diet.
I made a lot of new friends. I hope they are reading this.
I got a job.
I am trying to dress better.
My mom is trying to kill me, and I her.
I have a new band.
Things with Taylor have been shitty. We are in love with each other. Still, six fucking months later, after we broke up, and she is still with her loser boyfriend. After all we said, after all those nights of heavy peting, tears, deep longing looks into eachothers eyes, firework like kisses, after I made her birtday dinner, she is still with someone who she was telling me for weeks was just ok, someone who snooped through her phone, and how she would have rather be with me, but isn't. I am tired of this game. I am such a fool in love with her. Part of me can't stop. I have never ever loved some one as much as I have loved her. She completes me. I just am so hurt. Everyone I love fucking does this to me. When I am not with her, I feel empty, like part of me is missing. When I am laying in bed with her the world stands still, and everything feels like it is in its right place. There is nothing I can do, hell, I wouldn't even know what to do, as if there is anything I can do.
Things still feel pretty shitty for me.