FUCK ENLIGHTNMENT FUCK YOUR FUCKING ENLIGHTNMENT
It's amazing isn't it. This illusion of a world we live in. I have been told many things about how the world works, where it comes from, why we are here. Maybe to ever be happy you have to search within yourself. Maybe not. Today, I have found to comes to terms with an illusion I thought was real. I don't think we can ever understand an illusion, but we can realize what's going on around us a bit more....Maybe I am a very sensitive person, who takes things to heart too much. Maybe there are people can just take things in and breathe them out. But you know what, sometimes life just isn't so easy. ITS JUST NOT.
Im not perfect, but I'm not stupid.
Does it really take someone that you love, to hurt you so badly for you to get the point?
I have hurt more people than I am aware of in my lifetime, this I understand
And everytime I feel a complete sense of sorrow, I think about these times.
I think about the people I have let down, the people I have hurt
I think to myself, this is what I have made others feel.
I have always had good intentions in my actions.
I carry no hate in my heart
I love my friends, I love my family.
Yes, I can be selfish, yes I am forgetful,
But you know what.
Im tired.
Im so fucking tired.
I can see it in my mind almost.
as soon as you have the courage to get yourself back on your feet,
you may be standing but your knees are shaking
and when you stop shaking, and your finally just ok
Your standing, not as a rock but as a feather.
Your light, your so fragile... healing but on your flight
and then it comes...
To gently blow you back down to the ground
Over
and over
and over
and over
time after time
It seems all the people that love you, you don't really give your time to
Does it matter if your loving or not?
Does it even matter?
Sometimes, I get so low it makes me wonder
Is it even worth it
When you get hurt to badly, your like IM DONE
Im done with this Im done with that
and it seems your always back in the same place, the details have changed
But then I see, that I can't be mad
I can't be mad when there are so much good
All I know how to be, is to be myself.
I have no answers, I have no clue.
And you know, there is no answers.
All the pieces to the puz, arent really there.
When you figure it all out, your just going to start all over once more
So im going to try and just
take this breath
and the next
and forgive those who hurt me so much
truely forgive, and never forget
and try and love this life.
Go lightly on the ground.
Im not perfect, but I'm not stupid.
Does it really take someone that you love, to hurt you so badly for you to get the point?
I have hurt more people than I am aware of in my lifetime, this I understand
And everytime I feel a complete sense of sorrow, I think about these times.
I think about the people I have let down, the people I have hurt
I think to myself, this is what I have made others feel.
I have always had good intentions in my actions.
I carry no hate in my heart
I love my friends, I love my family.
Yes, I can be selfish, yes I am forgetful,
But you know what.
Im tired.
Im so fucking tired.
I can see it in my mind almost.
as soon as you have the courage to get yourself back on your feet,
you may be standing but your knees are shaking
and when you stop shaking, and your finally just ok
Your standing, not as a rock but as a feather.
Your light, your so fragile... healing but on your flight
and then it comes...
To gently blow you back down to the ground
Over
and over
and over
and over
time after time
It seems all the people that love you, you don't really give your time to
Does it matter if your loving or not?
Does it even matter?
Sometimes, I get so low it makes me wonder
Is it even worth it
When you get hurt to badly, your like IM DONE
Im done with this Im done with that
and it seems your always back in the same place, the details have changed
But then I see, that I can't be mad
I can't be mad when there are so much good
All I know how to be, is to be myself.
I have no answers, I have no clue.
And you know, there is no answers.
All the pieces to the puz, arent really there.
When you figure it all out, your just going to start all over once more
So im going to try and just
take this breath
and the next
and forgive those who hurt me so much
truely forgive, and never forget
and try and love this life.
Go lightly on the ground.