When your praying bites the dust...
Why can't anything just be a little bit easy? I had everything all figured out...I even got the hard part done and over with. Now I have this big thing standing in my way and I don't know how to make it move. I don't get it. Why can't I have what I want, especially if I am getting it for myself by myself? I wish I understood the thought process behind this one.
I am so frustrated and overwhelmed. One thing makes me just want to cry every time I think about it. There are lots of other things, but this one big things shadows everything else. I don't know what to do and I don't think the people involved will do what needs to be done. I just feel like I have a lot resting on my shoulders and if I don't do anything about it...who will?
You have to understand...I am not saying that I am unhappy. I am quite happy with my life and where it is going. There are just things that normally people my age don't have to worry about. It sucks...I just needed to vent about it. I am at a loss. I don't know what to do and neither does anyone else. Just something else to add to the list of things I have to take care of.
The more I think about all of this, the more and more hopeless it seems. I feel like I am actually beyond overwhelmed. No one really knows the whole story...I probably won't tell anyone anymore than what they already know. That's just the way I am...and I have learned that most people just pretend to care.
I am really in one of those sort of moods that I could write.
Sorry...I just really needed to vent.
I am so frustrated and overwhelmed. One thing makes me just want to cry every time I think about it. There are lots of other things, but this one big things shadows everything else. I don't know what to do and I don't think the people involved will do what needs to be done. I just feel like I have a lot resting on my shoulders and if I don't do anything about it...who will?
You have to understand...I am not saying that I am unhappy. I am quite happy with my life and where it is going. There are just things that normally people my age don't have to worry about. It sucks...I just needed to vent about it. I am at a loss. I don't know what to do and neither does anyone else. Just something else to add to the list of things I have to take care of.
The more I think about all of this, the more and more hopeless it seems. I feel like I am actually beyond overwhelmed. No one really knows the whole story...I probably won't tell anyone anymore than what they already know. That's just the way I am...and I have learned that most people just pretend to care.
I am really in one of those sort of moods that I could write.
Sorry...I just really needed to vent.