Thoughts on New Year
While I always like the idea of a fresh start every new year, I also feel scared. I always wonder what it has in store and tend to focus on the negative possibilities. God knows this was the worst year of my life, but partly because of my own stupidity, which will not repeat itself in the upcoming year or any other time. I must say I never wanted a year to be over as much as I want this one to end. But again, I am filled with fears about what the next year has in store. I know I should focus on the positive possibilities, but I can't seem to manage that. However I have learned a lot this year, and like I said, a lot of stupid mistakes will not be made and wont land me in horrible situations I found myself in this year. This year I truly found myself in situations I never thought I will ever find myself in. It did teach me a lot. But a lot of horrible things happened that were out of my control entirely. That's the fear every new year. Of the potentially awful stuff that can happen that are of no fault of my own. I need to shift my thinking to be more positive.