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well, tonite i had people over...its about 12, and im fucking wasted...amy is sittring next to me, watching me type in my journal....its cool, i dont realy mind......tonite was really great, we all had fun drinking and doing what we all do best, hanging out..
so i started drinking at like 8:30 and everyone slowly followed and we all ended up being trashed...overall it was a good nite....as i was drinking and just zoning out, i finally decided that i should not have the feelings towards cara that i have had for however long....ive decided that if she doesnt feel the way i do, that theres nothing i can do about it and that life moves on...although i honestly think that me and her could have that connection that poeople look for, and that i feel like i can relate to her more than i can normally do towards most girls, its ok, because i realized these things mean nothing unless both sides feel the same way...in this case, both sides, didnt, and theres nothing to do about it because its just that simple..i dont even know what to say anymore......i really wanted to just tell her tonite, but i didnt take advantage of the situation...im an idiot sometimes, and i seriously feel like im stupid when it comes to girls...its cool, i dont even know what to say anymore....i can barely walk, let alone see, and i feel like its about the end of this entry...so im just going to conclude with saying that i feel like i am done with the situation that confused me for a month and that im seriously going to undergo some serious self re-evaluation and then im going to go to bed...so therefore, all i have left so say is goodnight...........
so i started drinking at like 8:30 and everyone slowly followed and we all ended up being trashed...overall it was a good nite....as i was drinking and just zoning out, i finally decided that i should not have the feelings towards cara that i have had for however long....ive decided that if she doesnt feel the way i do, that theres nothing i can do about it and that life moves on...although i honestly think that me and her could have that connection that poeople look for, and that i feel like i can relate to her more than i can normally do towards most girls, its ok, because i realized these things mean nothing unless both sides feel the same way...in this case, both sides, didnt, and theres nothing to do about it because its just that simple..i dont even know what to say anymore......i really wanted to just tell her tonite, but i didnt take advantage of the situation...im an idiot sometimes, and i seriously feel like im stupid when it comes to girls...its cool, i dont even know what to say anymore....i can barely walk, let alone see, and i feel like its about the end of this entry...so im just going to conclude with saying that i feel like i am done with the situation that confused me for a month and that im seriously going to undergo some serious self re-evaluation and then im going to go to bed...so therefore, all i have left so say is goodnight...........