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i have a gift for you...its my heart...yeah, be careful with that box though... its fragile and has never been opened.... yet its falling apart...somehow, in your hands, it seems right....it feels warm again....its yours...its yours for the taking.....
....whoever you are....
well, this statement was made some time ago and its sad...i really do feel this way...sometimes i even suprise myself when i write some things.....but whatever, i feel lost again...for a little bit, i was beginning to lean towards someone i probably shouldnt have, but hey, thats life...realizing you arent good enough for people and that you probably dont deserve some opportunities is all part of the cycle i like to call "teenage-life"....theoretically speaking, if love really is all of this glamour and happiness and sheer greatness, why do so many people think they find it, and then learn the hard way that they just arent meant for it...in all reality, if i was to just find what im looking for, id be absolutely content...i have great friends, this is no lie...i have a great family, i have fun with everyone....
....HOWEVER...i dont have anyone to just call and release everything to...i dont have anyone who i can just look at and feel special, knowing they are my girlfriend.....i dont have anyone whose eyes i can just look into and feel like everything's perfect...i dont have a person who can just smile at me and change my day, single handedly....i dont have someone whose touch can heal all of my stress and whose kiss makes me feel like the luckiest person in the world.......thats what i want....I want a girl to relate to as well as to care about......this is the girl i want, and the worst part is, I CANT HAVE HER!....whether its the fact that im not good enough, she doesnt like me, im not worth her attention, she doesnt know i feel the way i do, or just that she doesnt exist...I cant have her...i probably never will........why?!....because im an idiot....
im done for now...im too angry/depressed
[-]- joe
....whoever you are....
well, this statement was made some time ago and its sad...i really do feel this way...sometimes i even suprise myself when i write some things.....but whatever, i feel lost again...for a little bit, i was beginning to lean towards someone i probably shouldnt have, but hey, thats life...realizing you arent good enough for people and that you probably dont deserve some opportunities is all part of the cycle i like to call "teenage-life"....theoretically speaking, if love really is all of this glamour and happiness and sheer greatness, why do so many people think they find it, and then learn the hard way that they just arent meant for it...in all reality, if i was to just find what im looking for, id be absolutely content...i have great friends, this is no lie...i have a great family, i have fun with everyone....
....HOWEVER...i dont have anyone to just call and release everything to...i dont have anyone who i can just look at and feel special, knowing they are my girlfriend.....i dont have anyone whose eyes i can just look into and feel like everything's perfect...i dont have a person who can just smile at me and change my day, single handedly....i dont have someone whose touch can heal all of my stress and whose kiss makes me feel like the luckiest person in the world.......thats what i want....I want a girl to relate to as well as to care about......this is the girl i want, and the worst part is, I CANT HAVE HER!....whether its the fact that im not good enough, she doesnt like me, im not worth her attention, she doesnt know i feel the way i do, or just that she doesnt exist...I cant have her...i probably never will........why?!....because im an idiot....
im done for now...im too angry/depressed
[-]- joe