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I am so dramatic; I don't know that it is an outward trait I readily share but I feel things so deeply that I have no choice but to express it with the same amount of emotion = DRAMATIC. Or can I? Can a person who feels emotion to their core and backs this up with a thought process as active as a hampster on a wheel learn to not be so emotional? This is what I need to explore.
Second exploration...my current relationship. Easiest, I think, just to make a list of my concerns:
what does he value about me? He says he is insecure, and to a point I can believe this but on a daily basis he expresses attributes about himself that I know he values. Rarely does he express what he respects about me...is there anything or is he better at his own self fulfilling revealation?
he does not communicate well.
he does not believe in finding the middle ground. In his mind, it is either my way or his way and he really doesn't see the middle ground. Just as bothersome, he doesn't see the times I have compromised. His life has had its share of complications in the year and a half we have been dating; I have made sacrifices...I think he is oblivious.
he has a daughter; this is and of itself is not a bad thing. However, it is an adjustment and a committment. I also hate that if we did make it to a point of having children, he has done all this with someone else...what an emotional drain.
I do so much to ensure he is happy, I have lost some of myself...is that what love does? The crappy part, he doesn't even acknowledge my efforts and often, doesn't reciprocate. He doesn't help around the house and that SUCKS!
he is awful with responsibility, to include money. He certainly doesn't see this, or at least admit it, but with the mindset he holds, he will never be ahead of the curve.
he can't stick to a plan and is extremely indecisive. I can't tell if it sometimes turns him selfish or vice versa.
i don't really believe he will ever ask me to marry him
he is a great father
the values he believes in are ones I share, I think these more serious beliefs are very important to future success in child rearing and relations
he is a great friend
he is very intuitive
he can be very supportive and I believe he would stand by someone through anything
he is generous
he has alot of love and likes to show it through physical interaction, which is important to me because I am the same.