When is it my turn?
I feel like I use this journal more to vent then anything else but the truth is, I don't think anyone really reads it anyway so it really is like a private journal. I'm really not trying to entertain anyone. That being said, here is some more bitching...what is wrong with me? Why can I not find a good man? I get to the point where I start wondering if subconsciously I really don't want one and sabotage my opportunities. Who the hell can explain it! It is becoming hard not to feel my ego faltering a bit, I mean I used to think I was a good catch...now I more often wonder what I do wrong. It really isn't even just guys, any friends I have made here don't ever seem as if they would really care if we never spoke again...have I just lost my charm?!? My old friends love me because I am a good friend to people, I am a good person. I have a drive that people have found inspiring, I am passionate about issues and enjoy a lot of different hobbies. No one seems very taken with me these days though. For instance, I met a guy a few weeks ago (now that I know his age, he is too young for me anyway) but he hasn't asked me out yet. We might meet out and he calls all the time but...no date. Well, at least I now have a date for a big dinner I have to attend next week for work. Well, at least I just got a promotion and my team seems really excited about having me as their Supervisor. At least I get appreciation somewhere...and I wonder why I am a work a-holic?