Mawkish Amorousness
It's been a while since I last posted. I think it was Rocky who said that people blog more sometimes because they're sad. In a way, I consider it true but I am not blogging now because of loneliness. I just remembered reading my archived entries last week and I liked the nostalgia that was associated with it. Nakakaaliw lang, the entries were hilarious. I don't even remember writing those posts. I guess, I just want to make up for lost blogging opportunities.
Anyway, it's been three weeks since Macky and I got back together. I am just glad that we're way past the drama. Everything has been smooth sailing and we've been spending a lot of time together. I am very glad with the decision that I have made and if there is one thing that I can take away from the experience, it's that we have to be selfish sometimes. The fear of hurting someone and the guilt that is associated after you have done it unintentionally is something that can not be a part of the equation when you're trying to come up with a decision for yourself.
The first night that we spent together after the break-up was something magical. It felt like I was in the circus act, the flying trapeze, and that trick failed but I wasn't afraid to fall because he was there as my safety net. And since then I've been feeling giddy everytime I see the smile on his face or whenever his arms are around me when we're lying in bed. :-)
I'm happy that he's changed and I'm even more happy to know that he changed not because of me but because he was able to break away from the barriers that used to stop him from loving. Now all I want to do is show him and make him feel that this shot at love and relationships is going to be worth it.
I'm not eliminating the challenges because it's something that is inevitable. But now I am happy to know that he will be there to hold my hand while we battle it out together. No more turning back and definitely walking away is not an option.
Anyway, it's been three weeks since Macky and I got back together. I am just glad that we're way past the drama. Everything has been smooth sailing and we've been spending a lot of time together. I am very glad with the decision that I have made and if there is one thing that I can take away from the experience, it's that we have to be selfish sometimes. The fear of hurting someone and the guilt that is associated after you have done it unintentionally is something that can not be a part of the equation when you're trying to come up with a decision for yourself.
The first night that we spent together after the break-up was something magical. It felt like I was in the circus act, the flying trapeze, and that trick failed but I wasn't afraid to fall because he was there as my safety net. And since then I've been feeling giddy everytime I see the smile on his face or whenever his arms are around me when we're lying in bed. :-)
I'm happy that he's changed and I'm even more happy to know that he changed not because of me but because he was able to break away from the barriers that used to stop him from loving. Now all I want to do is show him and make him feel that this shot at love and relationships is going to be worth it.
I'm not eliminating the challenges because it's something that is inevitable. But now I am happy to know that he will be there to hold my hand while we battle it out together. No more turning back and definitely walking away is not an option.