don't you just hate it
I had been telling Mom that I was going to talk to some of the ladies in our Eastern Star chapter because I really didn't want to be the Worthy Matron next year -- I wanted to not be tied down. I was getting all my reasons together and getting my nerve screwed up and then it happened!!
What happened you say??
Someone's intuition kicked in.
A lady I deeply respect came up to me before the meeting and asked to talk. She offered to do all my programs and anything else that I needed done next year because she knows that the chapter needs someone that is a good Worthy Matron to build our attendance etc. She said that I managed to get people coming and etc. etc. the last time and she knew I would do it this time too. Don't you just hate it when those things happen - now I can't gracefully back out. Some offers of help and compliments have way too many strings.
I had been praying that I would receive some guidance for my future and what purpose God had for me. I prayed a lot about not wanting to feel any ties or responsibilities for a while.
Guess he let me know that is not a direction to go!! Talk about a love/hate relationship -- I love that God gave me such a clear answer but I hate that it is so diametrically opposed to what I thought I wanted.
Of course part of my reluctance is that it gives Mom the perfect chance to gloat. My Worthy Patron will be the little old man who Mom and Bela say is sweet on me. She can hardly wait to see us thrown together for a full year of meetings and planning etc. Maybe she has been saying louder or longer prayers than me??? What a scary thought.
What happened you say??
Someone's intuition kicked in.
A lady I deeply respect came up to me before the meeting and asked to talk. She offered to do all my programs and anything else that I needed done next year because she knows that the chapter needs someone that is a good Worthy Matron to build our attendance etc. She said that I managed to get people coming and etc. etc. the last time and she knew I would do it this time too. Don't you just hate it when those things happen - now I can't gracefully back out. Some offers of help and compliments have way too many strings.
I had been praying that I would receive some guidance for my future and what purpose God had for me. I prayed a lot about not wanting to feel any ties or responsibilities for a while.
Guess he let me know that is not a direction to go!! Talk about a love/hate relationship -- I love that God gave me such a clear answer but I hate that it is so diametrically opposed to what I thought I wanted.
Of course part of my reluctance is that it gives Mom the perfect chance to gloat. My Worthy Patron will be the little old man who Mom and Bela say is sweet on me. She can hardly wait to see us thrown together for a full year of meetings and planning etc. Maybe she has been saying louder or longer prayers than me??? What a scary thought.