one day I will write something I'm actually happy with
I had a nightmare involving about my thesis presentation and being late for it and woke up in a panic and started down the stairs before I realized that I was...well. Home. That's a bit indicative of where my brain's at.
In other news, awyf is living in my basement for the next few days.
And also, Torchwood got intense this week. Like, more than normal.
A fandom meme via kilodalton. I like memes, so what.
The first character I fell in love with:
The character I never expected to love as much as I do now:
The character everyone else loves that I don't:
The character I love that everyone else hates:
The character I used to love but don't any longer:
The character I would shag anytime:
The character I'd want to be like:
The character I'd slap:
My five favorite characters:
My five least favorite characters:
My deep dark fandom secret:
Main fandoms are Sherlock, Doctor Who, Stargate SG-1, Castle, Torchwood (limited to Miracle Day only, but working on backtracking sometime), Fringe, A Game of Thrones, Mistborn, Harry Potter and well, I think that's plenty enough there.
And another go at the words association meme cause again, weakness for these things. From sabersailor this go about.
Games- I so do not play enough games. Well, that's a lie. I play a lot more games than I should when I don't feel like doing something, or to just waste time in an absolutely nonproductive manner as a sort of means of escapism or just to deal with boredom. I started with basic card games, then graduated slowly into computer games and then finally console games. Though I was hindered in console games with a PS1 till we finally got a PS2 and a Wii. The games I tend to play seem to mirror a lot of my other interests in other fields- mostly fantasy based games with elements of role-playing situated through, mostly cause I've got too much of a weakness if you flash me showy graphics versus a d20 and a character sheet :P In terms of current day things, I'm grinding through FFX and play League of Legends with sabersailor and rabid_warsong at hours when I should rather be sleeping instead.
Oh, right. I also play a tiny bit of Magic: the Gathering. I make money from it. Judge me.
TV- I watch too much. Actually strictly speaking, I almost never watch any TV. Everything I watch now tends to be on my laptop, which isn't a TV. I'm weirdly picky about what TV shows I do watch, mostly because time is valuable and money. A lot of the shows seem to be from BBC. Doctor Who, A Game of Thrones, Torchwood, Castle and Fringe are probably the big ongoing shows I'm watching right now, all for different reasons.
TV also kind of substitutes in for a lot of the squee I used to derive from books. Which is kind of sad considering how much I used to read to how much I read now (still haven't started Dance with Dragons fsfsef) but meh. Squee is squee and squee is good and what have you. Life must have a source of squee.
Awesome-This is so broad. What do I associate with the word awesome? Well, let me list some of the things:
Various people I'm friends with, squee, A Song of Ice and Fire, homicidal hat tricks, suicidal immortals womanizers, irreverent spy masters with goatees, Kelsier, Jaime Lannister, Tyrion Lannister, Neil Gaiman, TARDIS, dragons, my mannequin, clocks, stickynotes, League of legends, synergistic obsessions, the Twilight Matrix, livejournal, doodling, lamps, Hilton Head Harbor, scrapbooks, smartyspecs, letters, fairy rings, quantum bouncy balls, pretty skirts, the internet, fandom, tumblr, word processors, ships, Harry Potter, epiphanies, good music, Cell block tango, waltz, the group musical, books, coffee, Claire, cats, fairyland, alternate universes, dreams, well. I could keep going for a very long time.
Writing- For starters, I can't write anything at the present moment I'm happy with. So it's just a source of frustration right now, since I don't know how characters get from point A to B without a completely contrived and forced means.
I write a lot, or I used to before I hit giant roadblocks like this. I write just well enough to not make people gag, I hope. I sometimes write fanfic, on the few and rare occasions where I can formulate enough of a character's voice in my head to comfortably write from that POV, but I tend to stick to a lot more original stuff at the present moment cause it's just easier. Short stories, those are good.
Beyond that, writing is a catch all. I use it to deal with stress, life in general, or much of anything. A lot of the stuff that goes on around tends to work its way into something I write sooner or later, typically later. You could say it's how I express myself, but I prefer to think of writing as a means of constructing my own personal sandbox and then letting people share. If I didn't have writing, I'd probably be a bit worse off since it's just one of those few things I genuinely just enjoy for the sake of it and is my own, in a manner of speaking. I'm fond of narration.
Research- Presently, it sucks. My thesis in its current form can't be proven or qualified, my results mean next to nothing useful in regards to anything I can conceptualize and my PI is on medical leave in the fall and it just kind of all is burning up in the air. I'm just watching to see what bits make it to the ground to see what I can salvage, and you know. Graduate and prove to myself I haven't wasted three years of my life on this project.
In other news, awyf is living in my basement for the next few days.
And also, Torchwood got intense this week. Like, more than normal.
- I kind of saw the eventual rise of the basis behind the Categories and the crematoriums, but I didn't think that they would actually. Burn the people to dispose of them. I guessed at just sticking them all into giant mausoleums and leaving them there, but I guess burning is a more efficient means? It's kind of...well, disturbing of how well the show's painting human beings to be monsters.
- VERA! I actually liked the no nonsense way you handled everything and just got things done and and you. Why? I AM NOT HAPPY. Why couldn't we have had...I don't know, someone less useful die instead? And to die like that to her own implemented idea....That's just cruel and ironic and distressing.
- Jack semi-hit on Esther. I expected a little more with the whole kiss comment, but meh. Also, Jack seems to enjoy making fun of Rex's uprightness towards him.
- So the Triangle and PhiCorp are in fact, distinct entities? Or why else would they approach Jilly? Also in regards to Jilly, she seems. I don't know how to describe her except very goal/profit oriented? She seems to have no moral scruples with how Oswald does things, but problems with the man himself?
- So Jack just wanted Oswald cause he's at the center of the media. I was kind of thinking for a moment in his speech that was going to screw over both Jack and Jilly, but angels? Really?
- Did I mention Vera dying was distressing? Do. Not. Want.
A fandom meme via kilodalton. I like memes, so what.
The first character I fell in love with:
The character I never expected to love as much as I do now:
The character everyone else loves that I don't:
The character I love that everyone else hates:
The character I used to love but don't any longer:
The character I would shag anytime:
The character I'd want to be like:
The character I'd slap:
My five favorite characters:
My five least favorite characters:
My deep dark fandom secret:
Main fandoms are Sherlock, Doctor Who, Stargate SG-1, Castle, Torchwood (limited to Miracle Day only, but working on backtracking sometime), Fringe, A Game of Thrones, Mistborn, Harry Potter and well, I think that's plenty enough there.
And another go at the words association meme cause again, weakness for these things. From sabersailor this go about.
Games- I so do not play enough games. Well, that's a lie. I play a lot more games than I should when I don't feel like doing something, or to just waste time in an absolutely nonproductive manner as a sort of means of escapism or just to deal with boredom. I started with basic card games, then graduated slowly into computer games and then finally console games. Though I was hindered in console games with a PS1 till we finally got a PS2 and a Wii. The games I tend to play seem to mirror a lot of my other interests in other fields- mostly fantasy based games with elements of role-playing situated through, mostly cause I've got too much of a weakness if you flash me showy graphics versus a d20 and a character sheet :P In terms of current day things, I'm grinding through FFX and play League of Legends with sabersailor and rabid_warsong at hours when I should rather be sleeping instead.
Oh, right. I also play a tiny bit of Magic: the Gathering. I make money from it. Judge me.
TV- I watch too much. Actually strictly speaking, I almost never watch any TV. Everything I watch now tends to be on my laptop, which isn't a TV. I'm weirdly picky about what TV shows I do watch, mostly because time is valuable and money. A lot of the shows seem to be from BBC. Doctor Who, A Game of Thrones, Torchwood, Castle and Fringe are probably the big ongoing shows I'm watching right now, all for different reasons.
TV also kind of substitutes in for a lot of the squee I used to derive from books. Which is kind of sad considering how much I used to read to how much I read now (still haven't started Dance with Dragons fsfsef) but meh. Squee is squee and squee is good and what have you. Life must have a source of squee.
Awesome-This is so broad. What do I associate with the word awesome? Well, let me list some of the things:
Various people I'm friends with, squee, A Song of Ice and Fire, homicidal hat tricks, suicidal immortals womanizers, irreverent spy masters with goatees, Kelsier, Jaime Lannister, Tyrion Lannister, Neil Gaiman, TARDIS, dragons, my mannequin, clocks, stickynotes, League of legends, synergistic obsessions, the Twilight Matrix, livejournal, doodling, lamps, Hilton Head Harbor, scrapbooks, smartyspecs, letters, fairy rings, quantum bouncy balls, pretty skirts, the internet, fandom, tumblr, word processors, ships, Harry Potter, epiphanies, good music, Cell block tango, waltz, the group musical, books, coffee, Claire, cats, fairyland, alternate universes, dreams, well. I could keep going for a very long time.
Writing- For starters, I can't write anything at the present moment I'm happy with. So it's just a source of frustration right now, since I don't know how characters get from point A to B without a completely contrived and forced means.
I write a lot, or I used to before I hit giant roadblocks like this. I write just well enough to not make people gag, I hope. I sometimes write fanfic, on the few and rare occasions where I can formulate enough of a character's voice in my head to comfortably write from that POV, but I tend to stick to a lot more original stuff at the present moment cause it's just easier. Short stories, those are good.
Beyond that, writing is a catch all. I use it to deal with stress, life in general, or much of anything. A lot of the stuff that goes on around tends to work its way into something I write sooner or later, typically later. You could say it's how I express myself, but I prefer to think of writing as a means of constructing my own personal sandbox and then letting people share. If I didn't have writing, I'd probably be a bit worse off since it's just one of those few things I genuinely just enjoy for the sake of it and is my own, in a manner of speaking. I'm fond of narration.
Research- Presently, it sucks. My thesis in its current form can't be proven or qualified, my results mean next to nothing useful in regards to anything I can conceptualize and my PI is on medical leave in the fall and it just kind of all is burning up in the air. I'm just watching to see what bits make it to the ground to see what I can salvage, and you know. Graduate and prove to myself I haven't wasted three years of my life on this project.