not Brittney....it BRANDEN!!!

[gi_jane_4_girls]

So I came to this conclusion some time ago, but I am now gonna start tellin people...well here goes...*deep breath* So I am going to start goin flat out by Branden! I hate my name and its too girly for me....I dont THINK I want to go thru the FTM...Theres just so much of me that is sooo much pure boy, and very select things about me bein a girl...I know I am a girl!! Honestly I dont want to have to pick that one box to X thats either male or Female!! I just want to be me!! Ever since I was little when I looked at an outfit, a couple, anything really...I always saw me as a guy...I never once looked at like a couple and visioned me as the girl!! I dont know but all of it I can explain in my mind...and it makes sense I just cant really think right now cos of lack of sleep and work bein hell....

last night at work I went to the E.R., had hospice nurses there all night, people havin seizures, others crying out in utter pain and then a ton of paperwork...oh and saturday night I cut my finger so bad you can see my bone, but I refuse to get stitches...so I put super glue over it and butterfly stitches...so its all good...

well friday or sat I am flyin to St. Louis....im getting excited...I think...theres just soo much that I have to sort out!! I am havin these thoughts runnin thru my mind!! I cant quit thinkin, and thinkin of another girl and not Marissa..I need to sort these issuses out!! grr...*grumbles* well off to go sleep and try and sort shit out...

*Branden has left the planet*