Oct 23, 2005 23:17
tonight i saw chelsey and we drove into the canyon. sketchiest place ever created, i don't even know why it exists it's so creepy. this weekend sucked, and honestly i kinda feel like i'm going insane/cracking up. i get my license in 4 days and i swear, i'm going to be GONE. everywhere. want me to visit? tell me when and where..seriously. i'll be there. i want to go on adventures, i want to meet new poeple. i want to be on my own, i seriously feel way more stable with my life when i'm on my own. my house is like an insane assylum. i almost can't bare it any longer. sometimes i think about where i'll be in 20 years. i'll be 37, probably have atleast 1 kid and hopefully be married. i want to be a successful person, not a housewife. blahblahblah, i wanna go to college and i wanna conquer the world. i'm freaking lonely, i can't help but get into these moods every so often, where everything..just sucks. i'm never satisfied. blahblahblah. im going to be driving everywhere starting on the 27th. seriously. i cannot wait.
i want to fall in love all over again.