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i just began to read through old journal posts. i think i got through end of january of my senior year.
i was so pathetic, was treated so badly, treated others so badly.
it was a bad cycle.
poor tj. i was so cold to him how could he not be such a dick in the end?
poor lee. he never got what he deserved out of us.
i'm happy and thankful that the three of us turned out so well. so happy. i didnt screw us up too badly it seems
we were young. too young to understand what we were doing to eachother.
we still are.
if i could change one thing of all this. i wish i could tell them what they meant to me. i wish we still spoke every so often. but i know that it wont happen.
i love them both still very much. it seems like so long ago. seems like the memories arent mine. things are so different now.
i'm getting choked up so i'll end it here.
peace
i was so pathetic, was treated so badly, treated others so badly.
it was a bad cycle.
poor tj. i was so cold to him how could he not be such a dick in the end?
poor lee. he never got what he deserved out of us.
i'm happy and thankful that the three of us turned out so well. so happy. i didnt screw us up too badly it seems
we were young. too young to understand what we were doing to eachother.
we still are.
if i could change one thing of all this. i wish i could tell them what they meant to me. i wish we still spoke every so often. but i know that it wont happen.
i love them both still very much. it seems like so long ago. seems like the memories arent mine. things are so different now.
i'm getting choked up so i'll end it here.
peace