Staring Down the Long Dark Road
This economic recession has got me scared. And there is no way around it. . .a spade is a spade and this has been a recession for months now. The reason I'm scared is because health and social programs are always the first that are cut when trying to save money. I already fall through most cracks since I am neither black nor female. I fear that in this recession I will be lost for good without any help whatsoever from the government. I fear that I will lose what little Ryan White funds I currently get, I fear that I will never be able to afford the antivirals when I have to go on them, I fear that I will yet again be denied Medicaid, and I fear that I will never be able to get disability. I fear the most that NEITHER candidate for President will be able to do anything to help individuals like myself.
In further updates, I still haven't downloaded any of the pictures that I took while I was out in Seattle and Portland. There is a little part of my brain that just doesn't want to download the pictures, doesn't want to look at them, or do anything with them. I don't right now want to be reminded of how happy I was, how free I felt while I was out there, and to be reminded that it's a life I can't really have right now, that I'm still and seemingly forever will be trapped in South Carolina.
On the medical side of things I am going into surgery on next Wednesday for an outpatient procedure. I will be put under and then I will have my left butt cheek removed. . .well not the entire butt cheek. I will though be having my perianal abscess split, drained, and then removed, followed by a packing to help speed healing. Since this abscess burst last May I've been needing to get this taken care of so I could go forward with my arthritis treatment, but had to wait until I could get financial assistance from MUSC in Charleston. I do now have the financial assistance approved and have the surgery scheduled, but it's still not sure whether I will ultimately have more money added on to my already $30K+ medical bills or not. As I was told today, it all rests on the doctors, and that GI ultimately likes to do things different from the rest of the hospital.
So that's how my life stands right now. At this moment I am just sitting on the futon, watching television, and knitting on a hat for skeelig.
*sighs*
In further updates, I still haven't downloaded any of the pictures that I took while I was out in Seattle and Portland. There is a little part of my brain that just doesn't want to download the pictures, doesn't want to look at them, or do anything with them. I don't right now want to be reminded of how happy I was, how free I felt while I was out there, and to be reminded that it's a life I can't really have right now, that I'm still and seemingly forever will be trapped in South Carolina.
On the medical side of things I am going into surgery on next Wednesday for an outpatient procedure. I will be put under and then I will have my left butt cheek removed. . .well not the entire butt cheek. I will though be having my perianal abscess split, drained, and then removed, followed by a packing to help speed healing. Since this abscess burst last May I've been needing to get this taken care of so I could go forward with my arthritis treatment, but had to wait until I could get financial assistance from MUSC in Charleston. I do now have the financial assistance approved and have the surgery scheduled, but it's still not sure whether I will ultimately have more money added on to my already $30K+ medical bills or not. As I was told today, it all rests on the doctors, and that GI ultimately likes to do things different from the rest of the hospital.
So that's how my life stands right now. At this moment I am just sitting on the futon, watching television, and knitting on a hat for skeelig.
*sighs*