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The girl watched herself like a mirror always looking from the outside of her soul while others reguarded her as normal she was not.She was careful of her words so not to imply she was not articulate nor bright.She was capable of showing emotion in fact she was in the habit of showing compassion and love for all fellow humans or creatures;but showing tears was the unthinkable.This was not the idea of anyone else around her,they all encourged free emotion but she saw it as weakness.When she cried she felt vunerable like small child that was lost in their own confines of the mind but not in the heart.This was her life and she was proud of it.