poison.
godamn, last night was the worst. me vs. my dad and my sister. it was fucking war. so many things, were said, but in the end it was me having a panic attack in my rocking chair. a million thoughts went through my fucking head. how my grandparents were my only only adult role models growing up, and now my grandpa is going to die within the year, anyone i get close to leave me, even sash, but thats not at all her choice or fault, but i've always ben abandoned. when i was 9 i didnt see my dad till i was like 14, my mom was never fucking here, my grandparents were the only ones who gave a damn about me and i think im going t write to them, it'll cheer my pop up alot. me and stephanie, we are not family. she is not my sister and i want less than nothing to do with her. then i got to think outside of my family, i still have no one, i have alot of people hating me cause i was mean to erin, that's such a shitty thing, get over it. annette doesnt want shit to do with me. and i know that for a fact, billy left to cali with mary, melissa hates me im sure, evan as well, probably jackie, such bullshit, i was always so damn nice to them. on another note, im going to hell tonight, ron's bringing me and im meeting up candyce nd her friend & billy from spikes. well i guess thats all.