the new apartment blues.
Heh.
so: moved in, got internet access. Had a bit of trouble setting up the network, but resolved it with a bit of help from dad. This sounds fucking weird coming from a 22 year old, but it feels.. lonely living by my self. well, not entirely by my self i do have an apartment-mate. I guess it is because this is my first time living away from my parents. I also think it is partialy my apartment mate making me feel awkward and lonely. Which isn't really her fault. I'm just feelin down is all.
I don't know how to explain what i feel. I want to say, "I am lonely and i want/need female companionship of the loverly kind." But I do not want to seem like I am so pathetic as to only be able to feel right when i am in a relationship, nor do i want to sound like i'm just a horn dog. I am neither of those. What I long for is that comforting feeling you get when someone wraps their arms around you and whispers in your ear, telling you that everything is alright. I miss that the most, the kind words and the comforting embrace. puting this out into words, it doesn't make me feel real manly, but its how I feel. I get so tired of being so tough all the time. I need a person I can relax around again. just to keep the stress in check.
anyway, this is Kyle, Reporting in from Pensacola.
love you guys.
so: moved in, got internet access. Had a bit of trouble setting up the network, but resolved it with a bit of help from dad. This sounds fucking weird coming from a 22 year old, but it feels.. lonely living by my self. well, not entirely by my self i do have an apartment-mate. I guess it is because this is my first time living away from my parents. I also think it is partialy my apartment mate making me feel awkward and lonely. Which isn't really her fault. I'm just feelin down is all.
I don't know how to explain what i feel. I want to say, "I am lonely and i want/need female companionship of the loverly kind." But I do not want to seem like I am so pathetic as to only be able to feel right when i am in a relationship, nor do i want to sound like i'm just a horn dog. I am neither of those. What I long for is that comforting feeling you get when someone wraps their arms around you and whispers in your ear, telling you that everything is alright. I miss that the most, the kind words and the comforting embrace. puting this out into words, it doesn't make me feel real manly, but its how I feel. I get so tired of being so tough all the time. I need a person I can relax around again. just to keep the stress in check.
anyway, this is Kyle, Reporting in from Pensacola.
love you guys.