I miss my boy... :(
This last month has been the most wonderful month of my whole life.
From the 9th of December to 9am this morning, Rikard lived here with me. Now he's gone, I miss him more than I could ever explain. I've been crying on and off most of the day - it hasn't been easy to say goodbye to him again. I hate that we have to leave each other like that. It never stops hurting.
The only up-side to it all is that it will (hopefully) be the last time. Rikard's coming to live and study here with me in England this July - in 6 months time. The thought that we might never have to say goodbye like this again is one of the few keeping my chin up at the moment.
It's so strange to have your loved-one so near to you one second, and then gone the next - but I know I just have to keep grafting over the next 6 months, so that we can be together. I love him more than I could ever attempt to explain - and I can't wait to step in to the world with his hand in mine.
Jag älskar dig, min älskling Rikard. Jag saknar dig så mycket. :( xXx