This Morning
So, today I woke up with feeling...a lot of feeling. I'm not sure where it came from. I still feel beat up and shitty due to my wonderful sinuses, but...but...I have this strange feeling, a small nagging sensation that everything is going to be ok. That all of this is working out and always has. And, yeah, none of it has been easy...in fact, it has been the hardest thing I could have ever imagined. Lost friends, loves, youth. All of it right now seems like such a little thing, because I'm no different than anyone else. We all walk through dark spaces. Some of us more than others. We're not given instruction booklets in this fucked-up world...we just have to play along, trying to find the right chords.
Well, I think I may have harmonized. I think I know something about this world that most don't. Funniest thing is it's been here the whole time, like a good friend sitting beside my bed until I get better. And now that I know, will I run away? Will I seize up and panic, thinking that I don't deserve these things like I always do?
I will do my very best, it's all I can offer.
I wish I could go back in time and let myself know that it is all going to be alright, that I am not alone...to let anyone know, let you all know. I think that's all we ever want...to know that...to know that someone cares enough to give them that moment of their time...their full attention. To know that they're honestly loved. That's all we ever want.
Ever.
Well, I think I may have harmonized. I think I know something about this world that most don't. Funniest thing is it's been here the whole time, like a good friend sitting beside my bed until I get better. And now that I know, will I run away? Will I seize up and panic, thinking that I don't deserve these things like I always do?
I will do my very best, it's all I can offer.
I wish I could go back in time and let myself know that it is all going to be alright, that I am not alone...to let anyone know, let you all know. I think that's all we ever want...to know that...to know that someone cares enough to give them that moment of their time...their full attention. To know that they're honestly loved. That's all we ever want.
Ever.