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Chad has decided my chakras need opening.
Why do i have the strange urge to smirk?
i'm giving serious thought to going back to (strictly) offline journalling about anything of a serious nature.
Phucking.Serious.Thought.
'tis a spell, it shall pass.
If i'm lucky it won't & i'll delete these bitches.
yea. whatever you say, Spooky.
[eta]
Still, since i'm not yet converting entirely to my offline journals (yet), i'll write.
This thing with the blocked energies is becoming rather bothersoem lately. Soemthing's been off for a long time with it, &.. sigh. had a few spells before, but nothing liek this one has been. they've always passed rather quickly; this one has been ongoing for.. a long phucking time.
if my memory weren't so wonky about timeframes, i could trace back when it started. part of me thinks it's matt. not him directly, but his passing. that's when my muses went to hell, that's when i stopped writing for so long. But i felt julie.love after that. or were it before? no, after. shite, see, this is where the wonky memory is bothersoem. yes, felt julie after. & then ..i don't know, it got worse. the blocks. & now i can't feel the energies except of a very few, & they're people i see on a nearly daily basis. Chad & aiden. Their energies are so strong i can't help but feel them.
Shite.
i think chad's right. time for that cleansing.
i had soemthing else to write but i'll save that for another (filtered) entry. heh.
^v^
Why do i have the strange urge to smirk?
i'm giving serious thought to going back to (strictly) offline journalling about anything of a serious nature.
Phucking.Serious.Thought.
'tis a spell, it shall pass.
If i'm lucky it won't & i'll delete these bitches.
yea. whatever you say, Spooky.
[eta]
Still, since i'm not yet converting entirely to my offline journals (yet), i'll write.
This thing with the blocked energies is becoming rather bothersoem lately. Soemthing's been off for a long time with it, &.. sigh. had a few spells before, but nothing liek this one has been. they've always passed rather quickly; this one has been ongoing for.. a long phucking time.
if my memory weren't so wonky about timeframes, i could trace back when it started. part of me thinks it's matt. not him directly, but his passing. that's when my muses went to hell, that's when i stopped writing for so long. But i felt julie.love after that. or were it before? no, after. shite, see, this is where the wonky memory is bothersoem. yes, felt julie after. & then ..i don't know, it got worse. the blocks. & now i can't feel the energies except of a very few, & they're people i see on a nearly daily basis. Chad & aiden. Their energies are so strong i can't help but feel them.
Shite.
i think chad's right. time for that cleansing.
i had soemthing else to write but i'll save that for another (filtered) entry. heh.
^v^