The glory of a sudden view.
And I love the boy.
He sleeps like a child, laughs without hesitation, gazes at me with adoring, sincere eyes.
I woke this morning to UPS bringing me a package - it was Ender's Game from MO. He mentioned that I should read it, as he has read it several times. My friend Michael also said I should read it.
I held it in my hands and just smiled so big...any boy who sends me a book (or reads in general!) seriously has the key to my heart.
I sit in my apartment listening to Garbage (lyrics below, I love this song), dreaming of things to come. But mostly I dream of right now, because right now is sofuckinggood and has been for several weeks.
I can't imagine things will go south. I am armed with my new tools, courtesy of losing absolutely everything and then gaining it and even more back.
I talked to him on the phone last night and we overcame difficulty like it was the tiniest hurdle and emerged with a new sense of possibility.
I am constantly amazed.
My mom made dinner for the family and my friends on Sunday night - Darcy, Mitch, and MO ate together with us like we were a giant group of loved ones (we are).
When my mom told Tracy that I was happy and proud of my family, Tracy responded, "Well, it's real."
Love is real, and I am so glad.
I feel like having an adventure today. Mitch, unfortunately, is "sore," so I may have to adventure by myself. What to do? I will have to think about it.
It's a gloomy day here - my favorite. It could possibly rain at any second and I wouldn't mind.
I wish I could translate how alive I feel into words - I wake up smiling and feel like I could just do anything. It's not that one thing in my life is good - it's that ALL things are good. I seriously have no complaints. I'd like to be closer to Darcy and MO in terms of physical distance, but I feel like I am as close to them in emotions as I can possibly be, and so, again, I can't complain.
I'd also like to get my butt back into the gym. Will definitely have to do that today...I plan on going around...7. MAKE ME GO. Someone, make sure that I go, okay?
Oh let's bomb the factory
That makes all the wannabes
Let's burst all the bubbles
That brainwash the masses
As far as I can tell
It doesn't matter who you are
If you can believe there's something worth fighting for
The color of an eye
The glory of a sudden view
The baby in your arms
The smile he always shoots at you
Believing in nothing
Makes life so boring
So let's pray for something
To feel good in the morning
As far as I can tell
It doesn't matter who you are
If you can believe there's something worth fighting for
The color of an eye
The glory of a sudden view
The baby in your arms
The smile he always shoots at you
Oh doctor
We're dying
There's no use in crying
So live for tomorrow
And do what you have to
As far as I can tell
It doesn't matter who you are
If you can believe there's something worth fighting for
The color of an eye
The glory of a sudden view
The baby in your arms
The smile he always shoots at you
Oh let's pray for something
To feel good in the morning
In the morning
As far as I can tell (Get it right now)
In the morning
As far as I can tell (Get it right now)
In the morning
As far as I can tell (Get it right now)
As far as I can tell (Get it right now)
As far as I can tell (Get it right now)
He sleeps like a child, laughs without hesitation, gazes at me with adoring, sincere eyes.
I woke this morning to UPS bringing me a package - it was Ender's Game from MO. He mentioned that I should read it, as he has read it several times. My friend Michael also said I should read it.
I held it in my hands and just smiled so big...any boy who sends me a book (or reads in general!) seriously has the key to my heart.
I sit in my apartment listening to Garbage (lyrics below, I love this song), dreaming of things to come. But mostly I dream of right now, because right now is sofuckinggood and has been for several weeks.
I can't imagine things will go south. I am armed with my new tools, courtesy of losing absolutely everything and then gaining it and even more back.
I talked to him on the phone last night and we overcame difficulty like it was the tiniest hurdle and emerged with a new sense of possibility.
I am constantly amazed.
My mom made dinner for the family and my friends on Sunday night - Darcy, Mitch, and MO ate together with us like we were a giant group of loved ones (we are).
When my mom told Tracy that I was happy and proud of my family, Tracy responded, "Well, it's real."
Love is real, and I am so glad.
I feel like having an adventure today. Mitch, unfortunately, is "sore," so I may have to adventure by myself. What to do? I will have to think about it.
It's a gloomy day here - my favorite. It could possibly rain at any second and I wouldn't mind.
I wish I could translate how alive I feel into words - I wake up smiling and feel like I could just do anything. It's not that one thing in my life is good - it's that ALL things are good. I seriously have no complaints. I'd like to be closer to Darcy and MO in terms of physical distance, but I feel like I am as close to them in emotions as I can possibly be, and so, again, I can't complain.
I'd also like to get my butt back into the gym. Will definitely have to do that today...I plan on going around...7. MAKE ME GO. Someone, make sure that I go, okay?
Oh let's bomb the factory
That makes all the wannabes
Let's burst all the bubbles
That brainwash the masses
As far as I can tell
It doesn't matter who you are
If you can believe there's something worth fighting for
The color of an eye
The glory of a sudden view
The baby in your arms
The smile he always shoots at you
Believing in nothing
Makes life so boring
So let's pray for something
To feel good in the morning
As far as I can tell
It doesn't matter who you are
If you can believe there's something worth fighting for
The color of an eye
The glory of a sudden view
The baby in your arms
The smile he always shoots at you
Oh doctor
We're dying
There's no use in crying
So live for tomorrow
And do what you have to
As far as I can tell
It doesn't matter who you are
If you can believe there's something worth fighting for
The color of an eye
The glory of a sudden view
The baby in your arms
The smile he always shoots at you
Oh let's pray for something
To feel good in the morning
In the morning
As far as I can tell (Get it right now)
In the morning
As far as I can tell (Get it right now)
In the morning
As far as I can tell (Get it right now)
As far as I can tell (Get it right now)
As far as I can tell (Get it right now)