Heh...
As I look through a bunch of old CDs I stumble upon one that reads "Tiger & Kittie Mix Vol. 1". It was a birthday gift from someone who used to be very special to me. I pop the CD in just for the hell of it and the first song I hear is "Maps" by the Yeah Yeah Yeahs. All I can think about is how we used to sit on the couch in that empty house of hers with the dog outside behind us. I slowly work my way down the playlist and I hear a bunch of familiar songs; Coheed & Cambria, Atreyu, and a few others are all here. My favorite is a certain Stellastarr* song. I think that I can say I was honestly fine until I reached track sixteen. I forgot that this song was on here. From Autumn To Ashes comes on and "Autumn's Monologue" plays. Damn, talk about a blow to the heart.
Anyone who was able to see that entry a few months back with my legendary breakdown in it knows about what happened to me when I dated Chenwei. This CD once saved my life, but now the person that it came from is nothing more than a mere spot in my world now. She helped to give me the will to press forward. The CD has lost any significance that it had. The song however continues to hold the same pain now that it did whenever I heard it then. Or is it that I've grown numb to the fact I tried to hold on and you seemed to have walked away from me? Heh, funny how the ones that we "love" the most are the ones who know how to hit the kill switch? FUCK!
I can only tell you that now whenever I talk to you I can't help but want to choke the life out of you sometimes.
Oh why can't I be what you need?
A new improved version of me.
But I'm nothing so good
no, I'm nothing...
just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence, of love, and of sorrow.
I beg for just one more tomorrow!
Where you'd hold me down, fold me in
deep deep deep in the heart of your sins.
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you don't see me. You dont.
Here I'm pinned between darkness and light,
bleached and blinded by these nights.
Where I'm tossing and tortured till dawn
by you, visions of you, then you're gone.
The shock bleeds the red from my face,
when i hear someone's taken my place.
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that i did was for you...
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you dont see me. You don't.
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you don't see me. You don't.
I'd break in two over you,
I'd break in two over you! Over you
I'd break in two,
I would break in two for you.
Now you see me, now you don't.
Now you need me, now you don't.
~theron_~
Have a great day kids. See you around...
Anyone who was able to see that entry a few months back with my legendary breakdown in it knows about what happened to me when I dated Chenwei. This CD once saved my life, but now the person that it came from is nothing more than a mere spot in my world now. She helped to give me the will to press forward. The CD has lost any significance that it had. The song however continues to hold the same pain now that it did whenever I heard it then. Or is it that I've grown numb to the fact I tried to hold on and you seemed to have walked away from me? Heh, funny how the ones that we "love" the most are the ones who know how to hit the kill switch? FUCK!
I can only tell you that now whenever I talk to you I can't help but want to choke the life out of you sometimes.
Oh why can't I be what you need?
A new improved version of me.
But I'm nothing so good
no, I'm nothing...
just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence, of love, and of sorrow.
I beg for just one more tomorrow!
Where you'd hold me down, fold me in
deep deep deep in the heart of your sins.
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you don't see me. You dont.
Here I'm pinned between darkness and light,
bleached and blinded by these nights.
Where I'm tossing and tortured till dawn
by you, visions of you, then you're gone.
The shock bleeds the red from my face,
when i hear someone's taken my place.
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that i did was for you...
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you dont see me. You don't.
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you don't see me. You don't.
I'd break in two over you,
I'd break in two over you! Over you
I'd break in two,
I would break in two for you.
Now you see me, now you don't.
Now you need me, now you don't.
~theron_~
Have a great day kids. See you around...