What The Fuck?!

[ghost_of_sorrow]

I find myself looking in the mirror more and more now. I sit and ask myself, "What the fuck is wrong with me?" Why is it that all of my friends have someone or are content, but I'm in my house going nuts. I'm screaming out on the inside for compassion. I only seem to find more heartbreak and let downs. I spoke to a friend of mine recently about my feelings for her and I still wonder if that was the best decision I have made. I'm fucking lonely and depressed. I am the big actor that I am though. I fake everthing down to my fucking smile. Do I not deserve someone in my life? It seems to me as though the ones who deserve shit are the happier ones.

In other words, we had a show at The Cootie Hut tonight. Just to let you all know, you didn't miss shit. The people out there suck ass. I also just want to say, fuck you to anyone who didn't have the slightest courtesy to come in and at least check us out.

Well, the good thing from the show is that Joseph B. brought some kids from Germany to the show. Wow, the girl Maria is just extremely beautiful. We somewhat danced to the trip-hop band that was playing there tonight. I think that I shall call her up and invite her over soon. Then we shall dance more!! :D Anyway, she's here until June, so that's all good. Wo0t!!! New and ineresting German girls rock! ;)

P.S. My face hurts and you should all comment on this for no real reason. Later peoples!!