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[ghost_of_sorrow]

So I found some strength in me to pick up the phone and call her today. I just wanted to know how you were doing. I missed the beautiful sound, known as your voice, that came out when your lips parted. I still don't think that we can be what we used to be. Not friends at least. I need you too much to only settle for that.

I wish I only had enough strength to tell you everything I wanted to today. How much you still don't realize you mean to me. I wanted to tell you that I love you. I'm fucking miserable without you in my life right now. I hold my head up and put on my fake smile everyday. It's just that now I can't even fool myself anymore. I wanted to tell you how much I need you here with me. Remember those days when you came over and needed someone to relieve you from all that stress? Yeah, I need that from you. I only need it like how it used to be.

It took everything I had to keep from breaking down after we hung up the phone.

I only want us to be together again. I'm just not sure if that's what you would want.

"Oh God, I could consider myself a king of infinite space...if it were not that I had bad dreams." (i had to use this one again. it almost shows how i feel)
-Hamlet (Act 2, Scene 2)

...iwanttocryandscreamyournameinthewind...