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i'm growing up. i didn't know this until i began to accept the things i cannot change. for months i've been trying to control things that i have no power over, mainly ppl. and today as i sat in the sun, i realized that i'm getting over it. i'm growing up and moving on. i'm realizing that there is no point to living in the past, and wishing for the impossible. i'll cherish the memories that made me who i am, and i'm trying not to be bitter anymore. i'm accepting the present and the future and looking forward to things to come. as hard as it is sometimes, i really just want to be happy and i'm not going to let ridiculous things or people hold me back. yeah i really incredibly miss some people, and everything we shared. . .but i did my best, and that's all i can invest in something that will obviously never flourish. and on the note of growing up.. hobaz said something to me that kinda hit me in a good way...today we were talking about college and stuff and she said something to the effect of: "you have a purpose, you know what you want to do and where you want to go. you made the right choice, you are lucky." <--and with that statement any doubts i had basically dissappeared, thanks hobaz. <3 Millersville, baby, i can't wait.
today was good.
ps. senioritis is dangerous, frustrating, but most of all... hilarious. good luck '06..it's going to be an interesting last 2 months of our high school career. bittersweet,