Flipping the fuck out.
I have a funeral to be at in 15 minutes.
Chris is a fucking idiot and is 'At Fred Meyer looking for my mom' as he says. What the fuck. You TOLD me you would be here for me.... fucking stop letting me down.
I am on my period, so besides feeling SUPER bloated my self image is fucked and I feel like a god damned whale. I have changed probably a good 25 times *not exaggerating* and I STILL don't feel comfortable or appropriate for a funeral.
I am about to have an anxiety attack. My breathing is fast and my heart rate is dropping because I'm TRYING to relax while feeling like I'm going to exlpode. I seriously feel like I'm going to pass out.
My mom just told me I need to be out within the year. I fucking can't handle this, not tonight and NOT even any time remotely soon.
I have millions of things to say on that topic, but I do NOT have the time and I don't have the energy to replay the past 1.5 years events that got me to the place I'm at now.
All I can say is I need a fucking shot, a new baby daddy and a house.... whoever can get me those things is a saint.
Chris is a fucking idiot and is 'At Fred Meyer looking for my mom' as he says. What the fuck. You TOLD me you would be here for me.... fucking stop letting me down.
I am on my period, so besides feeling SUPER bloated my self image is fucked and I feel like a god damned whale. I have changed probably a good 25 times *not exaggerating* and I STILL don't feel comfortable or appropriate for a funeral.
I am about to have an anxiety attack. My breathing is fast and my heart rate is dropping because I'm TRYING to relax while feeling like I'm going to exlpode. I seriously feel like I'm going to pass out.
My mom just told me I need to be out within the year. I fucking can't handle this, not tonight and NOT even any time remotely soon.
I have millions of things to say on that topic, but I do NOT have the time and I don't have the energy to replay the past 1.5 years events that got me to the place I'm at now.
All I can say is I need a fucking shot, a new baby daddy and a house.... whoever can get me those things is a saint.