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My mind was racing nonstop last night...it didn't help me fall asleep at all, neither did the fact that it was 10:30pm and was still 4-5pm light outside. UGGh! I looove summers in Alaska, but it's hard to adjust to the light. Once I'm adjusted, it starts to get dark again...and the cycle starts ALL over again!
Pete has been on my mind, I really still can't grasp that he killed himself. He really had it made. Great friends, good home life, lots of activities and interests, went to good schools, had a great gf...I was under the impression he was on drugs, and that is what influenced to kill himself. I learned later that he has been very depressed, who would have thought, right?
I know what he was going through. It is terrible that he didn't get the help and support he needed to make it through :(
I am ok with people killing themselves, as strange as that sounds. I have bene suicidal, I have known people who are suicidal and live their lives that way...they are truly miserable. My good friend Sean, he was destined *in my belief* to end his life, it was his decision and he knew he would make that choice for years.
I came to terms with his death pretty quickly, because I knew it is what he wanted. Pete's death is much different, I really don't think he WANTED to kill himself, it's very sad to be influenced by something/someone else and make a decision that will end your life. There is no taking that back, and it sucks. Plain and simple.
So anyways, I am very sad but I understand that shit happens. What an attitude, eh?
His service is on Thursday @ 7, St. Paul's Catholic church if any of you Juneau folks want to come. Nicole O'brien will be having a bonfire afterward, at her parents place on Fritz Cove. Let me know if you're interested in coming.
I'm going to Shelter Island again! YAY! Camping on Saturday, it will be fun fun fun! I'm sure we'll all have a few drinks for Pete as well, it's only fitting and appropriate :).
Umm that's about it.
Pete has been on my mind, I really still can't grasp that he killed himself. He really had it made. Great friends, good home life, lots of activities and interests, went to good schools, had a great gf...I was under the impression he was on drugs, and that is what influenced to kill himself. I learned later that he has been very depressed, who would have thought, right?
I know what he was going through. It is terrible that he didn't get the help and support he needed to make it through :(
I am ok with people killing themselves, as strange as that sounds. I have bene suicidal, I have known people who are suicidal and live their lives that way...they are truly miserable. My good friend Sean, he was destined *in my belief* to end his life, it was his decision and he knew he would make that choice for years.
I came to terms with his death pretty quickly, because I knew it is what he wanted. Pete's death is much different, I really don't think he WANTED to kill himself, it's very sad to be influenced by something/someone else and make a decision that will end your life. There is no taking that back, and it sucks. Plain and simple.
So anyways, I am very sad but I understand that shit happens. What an attitude, eh?
His service is on Thursday @ 7, St. Paul's Catholic church if any of you Juneau folks want to come. Nicole O'brien will be having a bonfire afterward, at her parents place on Fritz Cove. Let me know if you're interested in coming.
I'm going to Shelter Island again! YAY! Camping on Saturday, it will be fun fun fun! I'm sure we'll all have a few drinks for Pete as well, it's only fitting and appropriate :).
Umm that's about it.