My Hope
It's amazing how beautiful Alaska is... I need to post some pictures on facebook/myspace...
It's also funny how dumb I can be... Like today Heidi told me her and "The Marine" broke up before she went to Italy... She acted as though she told me...she only brought it up b/c he's in town... But yeah, we had an amazing conversation, and she told me this....and I hugged her...and said "see you tomorrow..." Why didn't I ask her if she wanted to do something after work? We talked about the effect music has on people, and then about what a mess the world is... She recently lost her car due to a mistake made by her step-mom, and it became repossessed...However she acquired a car, and now has no car payment which is awesome... Going back a couple days... My first day seeing Heidi after Alaska, she was so excited to see me... She was all like, "You're back!!" And we hugged... I also found out from Kristi she was asking about me when I was gone... She actually listened to everything about my trip to Alaska, and was really into it...
Last night, she seemed down, and tired... Mostly tired.... I sat on my 10 with her, whilst she was on break, and she said very little and had her head down... After my 10, I walked by her and told her that the flowers on our dining room tables when we ate were lilies, which naturally made me think of her... [because they're here favorite flower] and they're so pretty...hehe. She smiled so big, and her eyes like...lit up... That made me so happy... I love making people happy...especially when it's her...lol. Then we talked about her car and such... That night when everyone was outside in a group, she gave everyone a hug, but I was the only one she used both arms, and actually held me.... I wish I wasn't so...well...bad at life...lol I wish I knew what to do...
Well anyway, enough rambling... I just need to like...stop being scared...
"Nothing grows on, but time still goes on, and through each life of misery. Everybody's got a hold on hope, it's the last thing, that's holding me..."
It's also funny how dumb I can be... Like today Heidi told me her and "The Marine" broke up before she went to Italy... She acted as though she told me...she only brought it up b/c he's in town... But yeah, we had an amazing conversation, and she told me this....and I hugged her...and said "see you tomorrow..." Why didn't I ask her if she wanted to do something after work? We talked about the effect music has on people, and then about what a mess the world is... She recently lost her car due to a mistake made by her step-mom, and it became repossessed...However she acquired a car, and now has no car payment which is awesome... Going back a couple days... My first day seeing Heidi after Alaska, she was so excited to see me... She was all like, "You're back!!" And we hugged... I also found out from Kristi she was asking about me when I was gone... She actually listened to everything about my trip to Alaska, and was really into it...
Last night, she seemed down, and tired... Mostly tired.... I sat on my 10 with her, whilst she was on break, and she said very little and had her head down... After my 10, I walked by her and told her that the flowers on our dining room tables when we ate were lilies, which naturally made me think of her... [because they're here favorite flower] and they're so pretty...hehe. She smiled so big, and her eyes like...lit up... That made me so happy... I love making people happy...especially when it's her...lol. Then we talked about her car and such... That night when everyone was outside in a group, she gave everyone a hug, but I was the only one she used both arms, and actually held me.... I wish I wasn't so...well...bad at life...lol I wish I knew what to do...
Well anyway, enough rambling... I just need to like...stop being scared...
"Nothing grows on, but time still goes on, and through each life of misery. Everybody's got a hold on hope, it's the last thing, that's holding me..."