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things are okay i guess. i still feel a little nuts. mami's death is relaly taking a toll on me. i am in pain every day and I just cannot let go. i have to try and be happy. even though my happiness is miniscule. i mean when it comes to my relationship and life it is great. it's when i think of my mami. most of my day she calls me to check up on me and see how i am.. and i miss her stories, her laughter.. her happiness always rubbed on me.. she was always telling me how proud she is of me even though I have never accomplished nothing in life. I never got a degree in anything, I have no talents. but she always thought I was the smartest most talented person she ever met.. i cannot believe i will never see her again till i leave this earth. i am looking forward to so many things in this life, and it hurts to know that my mami wont be here.. oh well. who cares right? gotta get over it. but i cannot. i hate this. I want her back so bad.