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Today i woke up around 10:30, which was very unusual for me. I got ready and decided to call up all star sports to see what was going on with my app. The chick tells me to call back when the manager comes in, which was around 4:00. So then my friend comes over for a while, and we play brute force, one of the other games besides halo that i have. It turned out that it is actually pretty fun, and i was glad to get it for free with the x-box. Around 2:30 i went to Jawads to pick up my halo disc that i had left the night before, and ended up staying there until 7:30 becuse we were playing halo. By the way, i found out that A-SS is not hiring at the moment, but rather at the end of the month, so i need to check back then. And i called the best buy person for an interview, and i still have not gotten in touch with her, just a whole bunch of random people which is really pissing me off. So i think i will keep on calling everyday until i do get in touch with her. It'll take more than just not answering my calls to get rid of me! After that i came home, to find out that my parents went to a gujurati play that was at WSU, so i just spent the rest of the night chillin. It really wasn't that bad.
Then my parents came home around ten, and we went through the same conversation as to how i need to put more effort into finding a job because that is what i was supposed to do. Then my mom tells me that Kush is rooming in Mcollum, which i already knew, and then somehow we got into a conversation about how i had messed up in high school. Pardon my language, but WHAT THE FUCK? I DID NOT FUCKING MESS UP IN HIGH SCHOOL! I AM PROUD OF ALL THE SHIT I DID. AND JUST BECAUSE I DID NOT GET FUCKING NATIONAL MERIT DOES NOT MEAN THAT IT WILL RUIN THE REST OF MY LIFE. I did not say this to my parents, but i thought it in my head.
So because of today, i have now learned that i am a dissapointment to my parents. That just about fucked me over. After that i decided that it was a good idea to isolate myself from the world for a while, hoping to think about my life. But here i am, writing this so that others will know the pain i feel on the inside, although i never show it on the outside.
Now its time to isolate myself from the rest of the world by sitting on my bay-window seat, and staring out into the darkness...
Then my parents came home around ten, and we went through the same conversation as to how i need to put more effort into finding a job because that is what i was supposed to do. Then my mom tells me that Kush is rooming in Mcollum, which i already knew, and then somehow we got into a conversation about how i had messed up in high school. Pardon my language, but WHAT THE FUCK? I DID NOT FUCKING MESS UP IN HIGH SCHOOL! I AM PROUD OF ALL THE SHIT I DID. AND JUST BECAUSE I DID NOT GET FUCKING NATIONAL MERIT DOES NOT MEAN THAT IT WILL RUIN THE REST OF MY LIFE. I did not say this to my parents, but i thought it in my head.
So because of today, i have now learned that i am a dissapointment to my parents. That just about fucked me over. After that i decided that it was a good idea to isolate myself from the world for a while, hoping to think about my life. But here i am, writing this so that others will know the pain i feel on the inside, although i never show it on the outside.
Now its time to isolate myself from the rest of the world by sitting on my bay-window seat, and staring out into the darkness...