ThAnK GoD ... it's OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God- i am soooooo done with conservatory!!!! i mean uribes was okay... at least we learned something ( although his warms up always took frickin FOREVER), Voice was pretty meaningless... we never did anything! I mean i love AMY don't get me wrong but it was always a party day in her class... is that what we are here for?? Styles of Acting with Heather is always awesome! She is an AMAZING teacher!! i love her.... KND.. another waste of time. But whatever... at least its frickin OVER! i'm not going to conservatory today... even if its the last!... it's not like we are gonna do anything anyways. I mean going to Voice yesterday put me in the worst mood. I mean if we aren't going to do anything productive just fuckin let us go HOME!!!!!!!! geeze.
-Sry.... i have to vent..... can you tell??
On A BrIgHtEr NoTe............ Today is mine and Jimmy's 8 month anniversary!!!! Yeah- and guess what?? WE STILL HAVEN'T FOUGHT!!!!!!!! but i know it's coming!!! LoL! I love him so much. he makes me so happy.
So i've decided to leave Cornerstone (the church i'm .. or was... attending). Pastor really made me upset with the way he treated Jimmy. I honestly do not like that man. i tried.... really i tried but i just can't seem to like him. He is way to much of a hypocrite. Jimmy's really bummed becuase he wants to leave too because all the commanders do is treat him like shit and leave him with all the responsiblity but he doesn't want to leave the kids in his group. He feels he has so much to share with them. He's just torn between his best interest and the best interest of others. If he stays he will be helping someone grow in the lord but HE won't be getting fed. And if he goes he leaves the kids in his group but he will grow in his walk with god. Its a lose-lose situation. So if you pray would you pray that the Lord will guide him to where he needs to be becuase he has been praying about it and the lord has yet to answer so he is trying to be patient but he's at his last straws...
Anyways.... here a little song i like to hear when i'm down... It's called TROUBLES by Alicia Keys. I hope it inspires you as much as it does me....
Dear Lord, can you take it away?
This pain in my heart just follows me by day
And at night it stalks me like the shadows in my room
Oh my goodness
Feels like the world is closing on me
Feels like my dreams will never come to me
I keep on slippin deeper into myself
And I’m scared, so scared
If you’re troubled
You just gotta let it go
If you’re worried baby
You just gotta let it go
All your hustles ain’t for nothing
You just gotta take it slow
When you need me baby
All you do is let me know
Why does it feel
That my mind is constantly trying to pull me down
I can’t seem to get away
Continuous mistakes I know I've made before
How long will I feel so out of place
-Sry.... i have to vent..... can you tell??
On A BrIgHtEr NoTe............ Today is mine and Jimmy's 8 month anniversary!!!! Yeah- and guess what?? WE STILL HAVEN'T FOUGHT!!!!!!!! but i know it's coming!!! LoL! I love him so much. he makes me so happy.
So i've decided to leave Cornerstone (the church i'm .. or was... attending). Pastor really made me upset with the way he treated Jimmy. I honestly do not like that man. i tried.... really i tried but i just can't seem to like him. He is way to much of a hypocrite. Jimmy's really bummed becuase he wants to leave too because all the commanders do is treat him like shit and leave him with all the responsiblity but he doesn't want to leave the kids in his group. He feels he has so much to share with them. He's just torn between his best interest and the best interest of others. If he stays he will be helping someone grow in the lord but HE won't be getting fed. And if he goes he leaves the kids in his group but he will grow in his walk with god. Its a lose-lose situation. So if you pray would you pray that the Lord will guide him to where he needs to be becuase he has been praying about it and the lord has yet to answer so he is trying to be patient but he's at his last straws...
Anyways.... here a little song i like to hear when i'm down... It's called TROUBLES by Alicia Keys. I hope it inspires you as much as it does me....
Dear Lord, can you take it away?
This pain in my heart just follows me by day
And at night it stalks me like the shadows in my room
Oh my goodness
Feels like the world is closing on me
Feels like my dreams will never come to me
I keep on slippin deeper into myself
And I’m scared, so scared
If you’re troubled
You just gotta let it go
If you’re worried baby
You just gotta let it go
All your hustles ain’t for nothing
You just gotta take it slow
When you need me baby
All you do is let me know
Why does it feel
That my mind is constantly trying to pull me down
I can’t seem to get away
Continuous mistakes I know I've made before
How long will I feel so out of place