unlimited. . . my future is unlimited. .
So yeah. Reading all my old entries made me all nostalgic and shit and I really wish I didn't stop writing. Not just in here but just in general. As embarrassing as some of these were to go back and read, its nice to see where I was and what I was doing and feeling at that moment in time.
I guess ill start writing in here for now seeing as how I've got nothing but time as of late.
So last time I updated I was living in my grandparents house, miserable over the Denise and Alex drama. It took a while but I got over it and realized Denise did me the biggest favor in the world. She and him are finally done as of now. For good I hope because really no one deserves to be treated the way that he played both of us.
I moved back to the bay area a little over a year ago. I couldn't get a job down there and I was sick of fighting with my family all the time. I moved in with my dad. Got a job at wells fargo. Everything was good. It felt like I was finally getting my shit together. I made new friends, I had a job that I loved. But whatever I managed to fuck shit up like always haha.
I got fired from wells fargo a little over my year there. You'd think that I'd learn from past mistakes and try not to let my big mouth get me in trouble. But I guess after being a certain way for so long its hard to change even when you know you should.
So now I'm one of those ghetto ass people waiting impatiently for that employment check. I'm just discouraged cause I've applied and sent my resume to so many places and I've only been on a handful of interviews and I'm not getting anything.
My birthday was a few weeks ago. My drunk ass gets with this friend of mine who had a girlfriend. We forgot to get rid of some evidence which his chick finds. There went a four year relationship and I guess my friendship with him cause I haven't heard from him in over a week. You'd think I'd learn my lesson that being the other girl never ever works out. But yeah. When it rains it fuckin pours. As if I wasn't bummed out over my job I've been bummed over that. Oh well.
Thank god for the no doubt shows this summer. I can't fuckin wait. No doubt AND the sounds. Like alyssa said its like someone asked us who wed like to see play together. We totally lucked out with tickets too:
July 22. U-Amp PIT
July 24. Sacramento PIT
July 25. Shoreline seats in like ninth row cause there's no pit there
July 27. U-Amp PIT
July 28. U-Amp PIT
July 31. Irvine PIT
Aug 1. Irvine. Fuckin nothing, even lawn sold out. Were working on it though.
Aug 2. Irvine seats on toms side behind the pit.
Aug 4. Irvine PIT.
Hopefully that's the last show on the tour cause how rad would it be to be upfront at the last show. I'm telling you we lucked out. And we owe a lot to kelly and alyssas co workers cause they helped us get these bombass tickets.
Aaahh after wanting to see it for two years when it was in el lay and never getting to, my dad got me tickets for mother effing WICKED for my birthday cause its here in sf now. We were center stage in the orchestra in row r which was not far back at all. As soon as the fuckin orchestra started, so did the tears. I pretty much cried out of happiness for the entire show. After listening to the soundtrack and reading the books. Watching clips on youtube. Finally seeing it and especially that fuckin close. It was beyond amazing. And I knew it was going to be. But like I said, seeing it for myself. God. My mom liked it so much that were going in a few weeks. Seeing elphie during defying gravity, rise above the stage. I grabbed onto my moms arm rite before, with tears down my face, saying, 'this is it! Here it comes!!'. Haha I'm such a nerd I'm getting teary just thinking about how special that was to me. I called my dad from the lobby rite after it was over and I was still crying when I was thanking him for the tickets. Sigh. I wanna see it every single day haha. This is gonna sound cheezy or something but the music and lyrics to this show just relate to me on so many levels, especially with what's happened since the beginning of this year. Its almost like I'm glad it happened when it did cause it made me appreciate the whole wicked experience even more.
Anyways. Enough rambling. I've got laundry to do. Me and my dad are seeing bruce sprinsteen tomorrow nite so I gotta wash my born to run shirt haha.
I guess ill start writing in here for now seeing as how I've got nothing but time as of late.
So last time I updated I was living in my grandparents house, miserable over the Denise and Alex drama. It took a while but I got over it and realized Denise did me the biggest favor in the world. She and him are finally done as of now. For good I hope because really no one deserves to be treated the way that he played both of us.
I moved back to the bay area a little over a year ago. I couldn't get a job down there and I was sick of fighting with my family all the time. I moved in with my dad. Got a job at wells fargo. Everything was good. It felt like I was finally getting my shit together. I made new friends, I had a job that I loved. But whatever I managed to fuck shit up like always haha.
I got fired from wells fargo a little over my year there. You'd think that I'd learn from past mistakes and try not to let my big mouth get me in trouble. But I guess after being a certain way for so long its hard to change even when you know you should.
So now I'm one of those ghetto ass people waiting impatiently for that employment check. I'm just discouraged cause I've applied and sent my resume to so many places and I've only been on a handful of interviews and I'm not getting anything.
My birthday was a few weeks ago. My drunk ass gets with this friend of mine who had a girlfriend. We forgot to get rid of some evidence which his chick finds. There went a four year relationship and I guess my friendship with him cause I haven't heard from him in over a week. You'd think I'd learn my lesson that being the other girl never ever works out. But yeah. When it rains it fuckin pours. As if I wasn't bummed out over my job I've been bummed over that. Oh well.
Thank god for the no doubt shows this summer. I can't fuckin wait. No doubt AND the sounds. Like alyssa said its like someone asked us who wed like to see play together. We totally lucked out with tickets too:
July 22. U-Amp PIT
July 24. Sacramento PIT
July 25. Shoreline seats in like ninth row cause there's no pit there
July 27. U-Amp PIT
July 28. U-Amp PIT
July 31. Irvine PIT
Aug 1. Irvine. Fuckin nothing, even lawn sold out. Were working on it though.
Aug 2. Irvine seats on toms side behind the pit.
Aug 4. Irvine PIT.
Hopefully that's the last show on the tour cause how rad would it be to be upfront at the last show. I'm telling you we lucked out. And we owe a lot to kelly and alyssas co workers cause they helped us get these bombass tickets.
Aaahh after wanting to see it for two years when it was in el lay and never getting to, my dad got me tickets for mother effing WICKED for my birthday cause its here in sf now. We were center stage in the orchestra in row r which was not far back at all. As soon as the fuckin orchestra started, so did the tears. I pretty much cried out of happiness for the entire show. After listening to the soundtrack and reading the books. Watching clips on youtube. Finally seeing it and especially that fuckin close. It was beyond amazing. And I knew it was going to be. But like I said, seeing it for myself. God. My mom liked it so much that were going in a few weeks. Seeing elphie during defying gravity, rise above the stage. I grabbed onto my moms arm rite before, with tears down my face, saying, 'this is it! Here it comes!!'. Haha I'm such a nerd I'm getting teary just thinking about how special that was to me. I called my dad from the lobby rite after it was over and I was still crying when I was thanking him for the tickets. Sigh. I wanna see it every single day haha. This is gonna sound cheezy or something but the music and lyrics to this show just relate to me on so many levels, especially with what's happened since the beginning of this year. Its almost like I'm glad it happened when it did cause it made me appreciate the whole wicked experience even more.
Anyways. Enough rambling. I've got laundry to do. Me and my dad are seeing bruce sprinsteen tomorrow nite so I gotta wash my born to run shirt haha.